The Esoteric Path; Vaccinations; Police State

Trump showed his cards when he assigned the vaccination program to a high-ranking military official. So for all of you Trump fans, thinking he is against the system and going to save us, think again, he is part of the tool. But we must not fear the coming vaccination program. I’m obviously going to try avoiding getting vaccinated as long as I can, but in the end if they force me down and stick a needle in my arm, I’m OK, even if it kills me, even if turns me into a brain-dead, non-spiritual sheep, it’s OK because God knows that prior to that I was on the path. I was on the Way. The esoteric path. That’s all that matters. I could die tomorrow. It doesn’t matter.

The degree to which one is asleep and a good little sheep, is the degree to which one does NOT concern themselves with the esoteric path. They’ve lied to their true spirit, by becoming fully enmeshed in day-to-day life, they play the game, but they believe the game to be all that is real. Now what this does, on the subconscious level, is they deny the importance of death, they don’t think about their own death. They’ve accepted death as an annihilation of their personality, at the very least, if not accepting the idea of total oblivion. And this belief is encouraged by positive science. Mouravieff says that between positive science and the esoteric path lies a void, a moat, a great wall that takes great effort and upheaval to cross. This is what has been vaguely coined in the alt. media as “waking up.”

Now when we die, according to Mouravieff – who comes from a line of eastern esoteric, Christian orthodoxy along with Ouspensky and Gurdjieff – when we die, the degree to which you can retain your personality, your I AM, is proportional to the degree to which you’ve stayed along the esoteric path in life. If you haven’t followed it at all, and believe in the game of life as the only reality, then when you die, all your memories, your egoic personality is burnt up, and you must reincarnate again starting from whatever level of spiritual attainment (if any) you previously held. But if you achieve in life, to be faithful to God, the inner I AM, the Christ consciousness inside, if you’re dedicated and honest to yourself, then when you die, that part of you that was developed is preserved in God’s ledger book, the ‘Book of Life.’ As these ones reincarnate, they continue to climb the evolutionary spiral of life that leads to everlasting glory, conquering ‘the second death’ and joining what Mouravieff calls the ‘Great Esoteric Brotherhood.’

Mouravieff writes, “In the tradition, we mean by victory over Death the victory of our perfected Personalities over Death. This is the meaning of salvation.” And later he continues, “Our reasoning starts to become more realistic if our attention is concentrated on this end [death]. Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing. Our aspirations can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end, which is death. In our studies we must start from this fact.”

Now returning to current events, Neville Goddard, in one of lectures back in the 60’s already correctly identified this realm as a ‘police state.’ And its becoming more and more so. The Orwellian big brother state is going to get more extreme and out-in-the-open, but the police-men and military forces running this show, we must keep in mind that they are working for God, they are not opposed. They are part of the overall holistic system. Nothing is outside God’s system. They are here doing what they are doing for a very important reason. They are putting man to the test, making it exceedingly difficult to achieve the esoteric life, so that only the strongest make it. For the strongest shall be transformed in death along the narrow path.

1 Corinthians 15:51-53 New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

51 “Listen, I will tell you a mystery! We will not all die, but we will all be changed, 52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. 

At the last Trump-Pence.

Matthew 7:13 New International Version (NIV)

13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

Now ‘the road to destruction’ doesn’t imply going to Hell for all eternity, no it just means that their ego, their sense of self and memories (built from identification with the Maya world) will all be destroyed when they die and they have to start anew. But their immortal soul, their sense of I AM, can never be destroyed. That is their true consciousness. However they must keep repeating the cosmic cycles again and again until they wake up.

So you can see why the esoteric path is of utmost importance if you want to get out of the police state. The absolute wrong thing to do is focus your energies, your fear and anger and anxiety on fighting Big Brother. That’s what they want. Even bad publicity is good publicity. What they don’t want you to do is turn off CNN or Fox and go inward.

Everything is watched, monitored from above. What you do in the coming days and years will be very crucial to your spiritual progress, as life on Earth reaches a kind of fever-pitch crescendo. Spiritual gymnastics will need to be played, to dance around the darkness rising. Listen to that inner voice, the conscience which taps into the Holy Spirit, that is the only guide you can fully trust. Try to avoid the tyranny and the vaccine program as long as possible, but don’t fear it or try to turn to violence against it.

I submit my vessel completely to Christ, and if that means forcibly getting a needle stuck in my arm by armed officials, then so be it. If it also means that the only way to avoid the needle is to be ostracized from society, I accept that fate as well. As Bob Schlenker said recently, “it’s not about whether we live or die, but that Christ sees that we were true to the end.” And I can only hope the same for you, dear reader.


Do check out the following spiritual leaders, they have been very influencial to me as of late: the writings of Boris Mouravieff, and Neville Goddard, and the youtube channel called “The Open Scroll,” of Bob Schlenker and Aaron Hermann.

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The Advent Can Play Out In YOUR Life


“An Angel came to me and said: “O pitiable foolish young man! O horrible, O dreadful state! Consider the hot burning dungeon thou art preparing for thyself to all Eternity, to which thou art going in such career.”

…but I said: “If you please, we will commit ourselves to this void, and see whether Providence is here also.”

-William Blake, The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

Heaven without Hell is stagnation.

Good without evil is stagnation.

Blake writes, “Without contraries is no progression. Attraction and repulsion, reason and energy, love and hate, are necessary to human existence.”

And what is perhaps the greatest evil? An absent or unavailable Father (the holy ghost), and a Mother who can’t be trusted (Sophia sick with archons).

That’s the under-story here. The root of all evil perhaps can be said to stem from this cosmic dilemma. And this is the situation that remains until the individual awakens or births the Christ within, an act of becoming the Father, restoring the Mother. 

I and the Father are one.” – John 10:30

I have been following and working with Z for a while and have been mesmerized by his level of detail and clarity in revealing a lot of what has been occulted. However some aspects of his message never sat right with me. And I think the main issue I have, or what may be the fatal flaw is his assuming to know the Ineffable’s inner motives, and desires.

(He would even scoff at my use of the name, “ineffable.”)

But what if there are, in a sense, two Fathers?

The “Earthly” Father that died to be born again in man-as-Christ, and the Heavenly Father who is ineffable – omniscient, omnipresent, and omnipotent. That one doesn’t need to “experience relationship.” It is pure love, and wants nothing more than to impart that love onto its creation. To say it took a risk, to dissolve or contract itself INTO creation is to anthropomorphize the Ineffable. After all, it can and does experience relationship every time a man and a woman fall in love, or in the love between parent and child, or between two close friends, brothers, sisters. It experiences all these things through us, all of it is felt by THE ALL.

In this light, the threat of an “infinite shattering” seems like a mind control tactic, remixed from Churchianity’s dogma of “you will burn in Hell for all eternity for failing to recognize Jesus as your savior.” A way to garner total loyalty out of fear; shackled by guilt to the one deemed the savior. We can and must save ourselves. Neville Goddard says that such deliverance happens on an individual basis, not as a collective. He, like Z, has had a spiritual awakening where Christ was born in him, and this can happen to anyone who awakens their innate, divinely gifted Imagination. When this happens, the advent really does play out in your life. The bible isn’t secular history, it details the psychological play or drama that unfolds when man awakens the Christ within. It’s the promise of God. 

So yes, there are many events in Z’s life which would make him seem like the Messiah, the central character in the Christ narrative, however he isn’t special in that regard. It happened to Neville Goddard and William Blake and Joseph Frank and the Buddha and probably many others and will continue to happen as more awaken their Imagination which is the Christ within. This awakening is also the resurrection of the dead Earthly Father, the Holy Ghost. 

To illustrate this point, let’s read a passage from Goddard’s The Law and the Promise. Goddard writes,

“Here is the secret of the world: God died to give man life and to set man free, for however clearly God is aware of His creation, it does not follow that man, imaginatively created, is aware of God. To work this miracle God had to die, then to rise again as man, and none has ever expressed it so clearly as William Blake. Blake says – or rather has Jesus say-”Unless I die, thou canst not live; but if I die I shall arise again and thou with me. Wouldest thou love one who never died for thee, or ever die for one who had not died for thee? And if God dieth not for man, and giveth not himself eternally for man, man could not exist.” 

So God died – that is to say – God has freely given himself to man. Deliberately, He has become man and forgotten that He is God, in the hope that man, thus created, will eventually rise as God. God has so completely offered His own self for man, that He cries out on the cross of man, “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” He has completely forgotten that He is God. But after God rises in one man, that man will say to his brothers, “Why stand we here, trembling around, calling on God for help, and not ourselves, in whom God dwells?”

This first man that has been raised from the dead is known as Jesus Christ – the first fruits of those who have fallen asleep, the first born of the dead. For man God died; now, by a man, has come also the resurrection of the dead.

Jesus Christ resurrects his dead Father by becoming his father. In Adam – universal man – God sleeps. In Jesus Christ – the individualized God – God wakes…” 


Acts 1:4 “And, [Jesus] being assembled together with them, commanded them that they should not depart from Jerusalem, but wait for the promise of the Father, which, saith he, ye have heard of me.”

Jerusalem, the Holy Land is simply that state of being in total devotion to God’s plan for you, your divine blueprint, which can be intuited by a keen, steadfast imagination. Stay in Jerusalem, do not depart, there you will wait for the promise of the Father, which you heard through me, through the Son, Christ.

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A Word To The Gematria Enthusiasts

(Update: I’m not sure I agree with my own conclusions in this post, anymore. But it is still an interesting hypothesis. So the article below remains, for the time, in it’s un-edited original form).

First of all, I was one of you, so this message is not coming from an outside skeptic. I went through a period when I was crunching in numbers and phrases into the Gematria calculator at “” and looking for clues and connections. And there is a certain thrill that comes when two phrases light up, a match is found, and you think, “Boom! I just decoded the elite’s inner communications.” And there may in fact still be something to it, but as we shall see, in the large utilitarian scale of things this number crunching may be a waste of time, a circle-jerk leading down the drain of an alt media side road, where attention should be elsewhere. As well, most people putting out gematria decodes, including the top dogs like Zach Hubbard and Derek, lack the proper frame of reference to enlighten their audience as to what these numbers and codes REALLY SIGNIFY, why they are there, seemingly defying all coincidence. The truth that I’ve come to is, yes many of these number/word patterns in the headlines are legitimately there, but not for the reason that most might think. Again, we need the proper frame of reference, and for that, let’s turn to a discussion I had with Z about a month back, to see what his take is on it.

Segment of a transcription of a phone chat found HERE:

(We were talking about Jason Bickford’s Unified Code Theory.)

Z: …Jason is a lot of mania based bells and whistles, he can really pull you in for a while, until you realize you didn’t get any further, you just got held in place.

Gabe (me): But there is a cross referencing code, like some song might reference a movie which references the Superbowl score…

Z: Of course there is, because this whole thing has been formatted by intelligence using the nature of creation itself, so of course. What I’m really saying is, “no big whoop Jason, who cares? It’s obvious, you needed to do this by linear mathematics where I can just look at everything and see it.”

Gabe: And its the same with the gematria people?

Z: No language inside the code or the construct was designed for gematria except for Hebrew itself so anyone doing anything with English is just like, pulling at their pubic hairs or something…like that’s not real.

Gabe: That’s not part of the unified code at all?

Z: I mean even Jason admits that’s not real. People like Zachary K Idiot-head. like that’s totally fake. Its like Jim Carrey in the movie 23, like you can make any derivation fit. It’s stupid. English wasn’t built for that.


Gabe: I understand that, but is it contrived like, OK there were 147 days in between the Batman shooting and Sandy Hook, ok, let’s look at the number 147. Oh look! All these words match up.

Z: Yeah I mean I’m sure you can come up with a lot of things that are legitimately there, but it’s only there for the reasons that Jason correctly says its there, because this is an intrinsic intelligence built into the nature of the code and value system of the construct itself. The database. Once you know, the way this thing is working as a continuously cycling database, then it’s like, what’s the big deal? That’s like saying, “gee whiz! I made a discovery yesterday that from the tip of this finger to the tip of this finger is the same as how tall I am!”  It’s like yeah, that’s how DNA works, unless you are deformed. Its like so what? You know, all Jason is doing is like running around naked going, “I found a ruler!” Good job, congratulations. Nobody cares.

Gabe: It’s like pointing to the blueprint when you’re in the house.

Z: Yeah, its like “this measurement matches this measurement!” It’s got to. That’s the precision of the format that we are in. There IS a divine intelligence. This thing WAS hijacked. People jerked furniture around from the original creation….


So in other words, yes english gematria patterns in sports, news headlines, false flag shootings, movie easter eggs, etc. are sometimes legitimately there, but not because you have an elite group of psychopaths sitting around in their high castles or deep underground military bases planning these things out and chuckling as they stick a ‘322’ in the latest Batman movie. The codes are left over from the original divine intelligence, from creation itself. We are in a construct that cycles again and again, like in the movie ‘Dark City.’ Each cycle is slightly different than all the previous ones, especially because the anomaly of Christ changes things that go beyond deterministic expectation from the AI overlords, the architects of the Matrix. But each cycle draws on data from all the previous ones, and the numbers and cross-referencing unified codes carry over as well, recycling again and again.

But they can be used to, in a sense, wake us up to a divine intelligence and away from coincidence/atheistic/chaotic universe type thinking, which is why I disagree with Z that studying these patterns is a total waste of time. They helped wake me up. It’s just that one shouldn’t stay stuck on crunching the numbers into the calculator, that is only one stain-glass window in our vast cathedral here. Take the codes and run. Ask yourself what is behind the codes, get to know the divine story itself, the Sophianic narrative. The bride and bridegroom story is at the bottom of this rabbit-hole, as I’ve laid out again and again in my recent work.

Thanks for reading.

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Sophianic Intelligence Behind Lev Grossman’s ‘The Magicians’

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Author is supposedly ‘Lev Grossman’ (most likely, like so many others, just an agency man, a front for channeling occult subliminal messaging by the wizards in Hollywood, waving their wands of holy. 

Let’s look at the name.

Lev – leavening of bread. Dough rising due to gas -> Spirit

Grossman – gross matter

Spirit rising out of gross matter, gross/material/profane man.

Lev – leave 

Leave the gross man behind.

Or the opposite connotation – “live gross, man!”

Season 2 episode 3: ‘Divine Elimination’

Sometimes I’ll be watching a show or movie and suddenly a scene or dialogue will pop out at me and I go, “there it is!” The biblical narrative. Or the Gnostic bent of it. The father becomes-the son,  winning the turbulent love of the Sophia, the Female Eve who is stuck in the material profane mirror world of maya, getting her to remember herself, completing the Divine Marriage. (Sometimes the gender roles are reverse).

In this scene, Quentin and Alice (both loaded names, of course) are sitting in a carriage in Fillory (a magical parallel world, not unlike Narnia). They’ve just injured the Beast (an evil magician they’ve been hunting) but failed to kill him. Alice is pissed at herself for failing, and Quentin (who they often call ‘Q’) is trying to cheer her up.

Meta-characters – Alice is Sophia (Alice in Chains, Alice in Wonderland), and Q is Christ (Gospel of Q, Q-Anon, Qrist, Qabbalah, Quintessence). 

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Q: Hey. Thought exercise. Say we kill The Beast. Ahh… what then? 

Alice: Quentin, I don’t know. 

Q: It’s just… it’s a distraction. Come on. 

Alice: [sighs] Um… [clears throat] I would… I’d eat an ice cream sundae. With whipped cream and… those fake rainbow-colored sprinkles and… gummy bears on top.

 Q: I’m probably gonna try and win you back. 

Alice: Jesus, Quentin.

Q: I’m sorry. That just sort of flew out of my mouth. 

Alice: You know, I’m not a prize.

Q: I know that, but you know what I mean. 

Alice: No, and you didn’t just lose me like keys. 

Q: I know, which is why I feel like I need to earn back your trust. 

Alice: This isn’t fair. You can’t trap me in here. You can’t trap me in here and expect me to deal with all this heavy emotional shit when all I can handle right now… all I can handle right now is a goddamn ice cream sundae, okay? 

Q: It’s not a trap. 

Alice: Yes, it is, and why does it sound like you’re trying to fight with me? 

Q: Look. You’ve changed. Okay. You are not the girl that I met a million years ago. You are amazing. And not that you weren’t amazing before, but… 

Alice: Quentin, where are you going with this? 

Q: You’ve grown. And you’re still growing, and my point is that I am too. 

Alice: Are you saying you’re “not that guy anymore”? 

Q: No, I’m saying that I’m not just that guy anymore, and I think that you…I hope that you give me the opportunity to be better and actually deserve you. And I know that that sounds stupid, but I just… I feel like we could die in, like, an hour, and it’s giving me a lot of clarity right now. 

Alice: I don’t know what to say, Quentin. 

Q: Also, I’m gonna make you the best ice cream sundae you’ve ever had. You’re gonna forget Popper 1, and I’m even gonna put gummy bears on it, even though you don’t understand how absolutely disgusting that is. 

Alice: Quentin….

[Q reaches in to kiss her] 

Q: I’m sorry. I just was in the moment. Do you still want to fight? 

Alice: No.


Q: “Say we kill the beast, what then?” Alice ends up killing the beast, but at the expense of killing herself in the process; she conjures too heavy of a magic spell that it burns her up with a blue flame, allowing a fire-demon called a Niffin (nephilim?) to take over her body.

Sophia going too deep inside her own dream, like Mal in Inception, who, being stuck inside the dream for too long, when she wakes up she thinks she is still dreaming and commits suicide to “wake up.” Alice casting too deep a spell, killing one beast only to spawn another. Qrist Quentin Q doing everything he can to save her. 

Alice: “You didn’t just lose me like keys A loaded metaphor. She really is the key to our salvation, her returning to health, wholeness, sanity.

Alice:Jesus, Quentin…” In these esoteric shows they don’t just throw out the J-word willy-nilly, they are telling you who Quentin’s meta-character is.

Alice: “That isn’t fair, you can’t just trap me here.” This line is out of place in the mundane story-line, Q didn’t trap her anywhere, they are all working together to kill the beast in Fillory. Why would she say that? Because in the meta-narrative Sophia does feel trapped and wants out, her deluded, Demiurgic side seeks oblivion, and the dark side, the archonic husks are working with her to that end.

Q: “You’re not the girl I met a million years ago.” Strange time language, a bold exaggeration. They met maybe less than a year ago, at Brakebills, the magical boarding school. But in the meta-narrative it has been eons of cosmic time in which this archetypical narrative plays out, on both the macro and micro scales.

And as a Child of Christ, I will gladly put gummy bears on top for her, even though that’s friggin’ gross, man!

Season 2 Episode 7: ‘Plan B’

The situation gets complicated by Alice’s death, because to stop the Niffin possessing her body from wreaking havoc, Quentin does a spell to store her inside his head. Now only he can see her, like a phantom. He believes that he can bring her, Alice, back to life, back to body, and banish the Niffin, and she is trying to escape his body or at the very least make a deal with him to possess his body, just for a couple hours a day.

Sophia falling into madness, into belief in the physical material world and herself as separate from Source, from the Most High. Christ/Quentin has to absorb her astral form until he can save her and ultimately save their reunion of the Twin Souls.

The Niffin is the Demiurge, the archons that Sophia unwittingly manifested in her falling, its the twisted, sick part of the Mother, trying to convince Christ Q that there is no more hope for Sophia/Alice, to let the Niffin free to do as she pleases. This will only end badly for everyone. She wants to take over his body. Use him as a puppet or fuel source, (a nod to demonic possession and the goal of transhumanism).

Setting: the library. Again, please read these dialogues with the widest possible lens, a “cosmic” lens, if you will, and you will access glimmers of deep gnosis. This surface story, though entertaining at times, is largely unimportant.

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Ghost Alice being run by a Niffin taunts Q, “Your cacodemon wasn’t powerful enough to kill me. It tried. But when it saw that it couldn’t win, well, let’s just say it stuffed me in a place most convenient – that stupid tattoo trap on your back. We’re stuck with each other. Oh, Quentin. We’re gonna have so much fun.” 

Q is busy poring over magical tomes and trying to ignore her.

Alice: Stop ignoring me! Stop ignoring me, you pussy! Pay attention to me, you miserable sad sack! What’s wrong with you? – 

Q: Stop it!

Alice: Are you ready to let me out of that hairy back of yours? ‘Cause I’m never gonna stop. And sooner or later, one of these dummies are gonna call the brain police, and you got priors.

Q: This is not Alice. This is not Alice. This is not Alice. This is not Alice.

Alice: Just keep telling yourself that.

Q: You have got to stop.

Alice: Fine. Let me out of this trap, and I’m gone.

Q: Okay, look, Alice Evil Thing Inside of Me That Used to Be Alice I have to say the words to open the trap. Of my own volition. Out loud. And I’m not going to do that because there is one policy for you out here, and it is to box you up for eternity.

Alice: I’m kind of boxed up right now, in you.

Q: It’s not the same thing, and you know it. Block of wood isn’t trying to fix this. I am.

Alice: Save me? Is that what you think you’re doing? You think I want that?

Q: I think if you were really you right now, that’s all you would want.

Alice: Oh, what, and you’re the world’s foremost expert on all things me? Based on what? Our garbage fire of a relationship that ended with Eliot’s dick in your mouth?

Q: Look, you came really close to fixing this once for your brother.

Alice: I thought I did. But I was like you then. Small yet weirdly arrogant for somebody who didn’t understand magic at all.

Q: If you would just work with me instead of jabbing at me, we could figure out what’s missing. We could make the spell work. We could do this.

Alice: Listen to me. I promise, the math will never add up, Q. You’ll never get that girl back. Everything that’s missing burnt up when I became this. It’s gone forever, Q. This isn’t good for either of us.

Q: No, no, this is making me saner by the second.

Alice: I don’t want to hurt you. I actually don’t want to hurt anyone.

Q: Bullshit, you’re a niffin.

Alice: Q, I’m not bloodthirsty. I just want to be free.

Q: And I already told you I can’t do that.

Alice: Fine. Just let me take over your body for just the tiniest little bit. I’ll be good. I’ll be so good.

Q: No, that’s crazy.

Alice: So I have to be a niffin, yet I don’t even get to be a niffin? I could travel the universe. I could see things you couldn’t even imagine, but instead, I have to be bored and stuck with you!

Q: I’m sorry that it is torture to be with the one person who is trying to help you.

Alice: So go back to screaming until you go insane?! Is that your choice?! 

Q: No. That’s your choice. Or you could be quiet. And you can let me try and solve this.

Alice: [groans.]

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Psychic Residue, The Sniffers and The Film, ‘Push’ (2009)


Have you ever taken a walk in a new neighborhood? And you look at a house and something about it strikes you. You might look at a feature – a building, a window, a front yard, a glimpse of the backyard through the driveway – and you get a flash, a glimpse into the memories stored there. This happens to me.

I suspect it’s a function of the right brain. The left brain which is absorbed by signs, symbols, letters, words, distances, will blot this out. But if you develop your right brain you will be able to do this more and more. It works better when you are in a new place. That’s why exploring is vital. I suspect what is happening is buildings, houses, spots that give off this flash of psychic information, are residences of people who give off highly charged emotion. So a childhood home, children playing in the front yard, leave behind a kind of husk, a psychic molt which you can pick up on, briefly, in a flash of intuition. Now, the dark side can pick up this information as well. Z calls them the “sniffers,” coined by the film ‘Push’ which I’ll discuss in a moment. 

I suspect this skill works better in a new town because, once you’ve familiarized yourself with a neighborhood, your left brain starts to categorize these things according to your previous memories of the place, and thus the whole area gets shaded by your own personal impressions. These often get imprinted the first or second time that you take in a place. But in a new environment where you have not yet imprinted anything you are more open to these outside impressions. That’s why if you are trying to develop this function, exploring new areas is vital.

It’s the same with fiction writers; you often hear about writers like Burroughs and Atwood, they are often traveling. Almost like the act of moving around from place to place pushes the story forward, the narrative forward, opens up the fiction writing process. Staying in one place is a stagnation.

I noticed that shared public places such as a park, don’t leave behind these glimmers as much. Also when you go deep into nature, you won’t find it either. You’ll find a different kind of emotional charge in nature, but this specific type I’m talking about seems to be a result of being around humans. The best locations being residences: old houses with long history, or small mom-and-pop shops. A building where a single individual or small group of individuals like a family leave behind years and years of emotional psychic residue. These are the best spots for picking these things up. 

Now I met with Z a few weeks back, the man who claims to be Christ Michael Ha Mashiach (the messiah). I met him, flew to Miami, stayed with him for about a week in his 1988 Winnebago RV, which was not running. We had to get it towed multiple times. Nevertheless , I learned a great deal about living on the road. The man has many strange customs, as a result of being on his particular frequency. He says he is plagued by archons and has to thus protect himself with various rituals. Which I learned over the course of the week. I will now share with you some of these, as one in particular relates directly to, this “sniffing” phenomenon, this picking up on psychic residue, and how it’s exploited by the dark side, and how the movie Push from 2009 discloses this phenomenon as well as other psychic phenomena under the guise of fiction.


Pushers are psychics who can push thoughts and directives into another’s head, like a hypnotist on steroids.

Movers are telekinetics.

Bleeders are used as assassins, they can scream a person to death.

Watchers see glimpses into the future.

Porters are rare, but they can trans-locate.

Sniffers are called that because they smell what you leave behind, like your trash, and like a dog who gets all sorts of information from another dog’s urine, they get a flash of insight as to where you were, what you were doing when you dropped that particular piece of trash there, etc. They are thus employed in espionage as trackers. 

Interesting that smell memory is so strong: long forgotten memories can instantly resurface when you smell something that reminds you of your childhood or some long lost memory.

A snippet from my journal during my trip to meet Z – 


The RV has been towed to the mechanic, but we are still stationed, marooned for several more days. The car has no water or plumbing, so I’m learning to brush my teeth and wash up in gas station bathrooms and the nearby grocery. The tricks of the trade to living on the road. This morning  I am in a bathroom stall at the grocer ‘Publix’ and hear the guy in the stall next to me brushing HIS teeth! I never brush my teeth in public restrooms and the one time I come in here with the intent to do so and someone else beat me to the punch. A sign. I’m on the right path.

I wait until he leaves before brushing and washing my face. I become anxious of someone walking in and seeing me acting like a homeless person. Nevertheless I take my time. Something tells me I am protected, that noone will disturb me. Sure enough, only as I open the door to leave does someone walk in. He is wearing a shirt with an upside down pyramid. This could be more communication. Patterns from the Mother.

Learning how to not ‘break the field,’ when walking with Z. Don’t let a telephone pole get in between us. Never walk in between two people having a conversation. If you are walking on concrete, avoid stepping on plastic or metal gratings, to keep the ground underfoot homogeneous. When you are a targeted individual, when 2D archons are doing their very best to attack your vitality centers, you have to arm yourself with these little rituals that most people are unattuned to.

Living with him in the RV is a more difficult task. He got really mad at me for putting a sweater down in the wrong place. He claims my generation is entitled, spoiled, and that if he did things like that as a kid he got beaten. 

Keep my stuff in designated areas only, never assume more. Parts of his consciousness, his code he explains, are tied to the RV, that every little thing has to be exactly where he put it, undisturbed, otherwise he loses bits of himself, and the archons gain that much more ground. He also doesn’t want me bringing cottage cheese into the RV, but grudgingly makes an exception. 

“I don’t want that consciousness in my space.” He explains. “You are a homo sensorium trying to live life pretending you are a homo sapien. You want to have your cake and eat it too.”

The homo sensoriums in the TV show Sense8 are a rare class of humans evolved with certain psychic abilities. Most people walking around, he says are lacking this gift, lacking the Source Code from Father. They are muggles. He is trying to show me how to live as a homo sensorium.

Day 5

At a certain point, I’ve got to learn to stop questioning things, just go with the flow. I’m here to help Z, I’m aware of that much. But don’t bombard him with ‘what’s next?’ type questions. These are unnecessary and clog the field. Try not to interrupt his thought process. Give him space when he is dealing with others or on the phone. One thing at a time. He hates to split his field. I made the mistake on day one of pointing something out to him while he was on the phone with his daughter. He literally hung up the phone. Don’t split the field. In that attempt to multi-task, a hole is opened up where the archons can get in.

With the RV towed to the lot besides the mechanics, which is already closed for the night, I try to dispose of my plastic bag full of trash in the dumpster. He yells at me to remove the bag and give it to him.

“Why?” I’m hesitant to reach back into the dumpster.

“Just do it, I asked like 3 times already!” He is really mad about it. I reach back into the smelly dumpster and pull out my bag and hand it to him. He brings it back into the RV.

“You didn’t learn about trash yet? You know who talked about it, oddly enough, was Aug Tellez.”

“No I don’t remember that.”

Later as the sun goes down we walk to the gas station for ice and bottled water, I ask him more about this trash thing. 

“Who is going to be interested in my trash?” I know I said I would stop asking questions but this one has stretched all credulity.

“They are 2D vibrational/electrical parasites.”

“Is this like a cloning thing? Like they want my DNA left behind to clone me?”

“Clone you? More like track you. Track your progress. I only dispose of my trash in safe locations that I know, like a Publix.”

“OK but how is disposing of your trash outside a Publix or other known location going to prevent them from doing that?”

“In a safe location, the angels prevent that.”

“Are the angels also 2D electrical beings, working for the light side, so to speak?”

“Well there is a small group of us who never came in here, into the Matrix, who are working with them, yeah.”

 We walk a little more in silence and then he says, “There is the story of Avraham, who, on his travels always stopped in the same set of locations. It’s about intent. I make a stand. I know this place, and leave my trash here. Archons are less likely to attach themselves. Tesla says that all is vibration and frequency. You must really live this way.”

At one point I tell him I feel like I am walking on eggshells around him. Later he applies that to being here, in the Matrix, Mom’s game. Christ’s children in her world need to walk on eggs without making eggshells. Not absorb archons. Not accumulate karma. “Karma is Mom’s system,” he says. “I don’t like that system but I have to play it while here. Everything we do is being monitored. There is no getting away with anything here. No secret, private life. Everything affects karma.”

The goal is to get out of that system and go home (the positive version of the Singularity), but for now we have to play that game, and play it well, like ninjas. And that means applying rituals to everything. No thoughtless actions. Learning to live in tight spaces, close quarters. Learning to leave a small footprint. Learning to shield your light from folks who are low vibration and fishing for your light, wanting to siphon energy. The archons enter in and out of them, the Muggles, as well.

Day 6

He scares me sometimes. But its not really him, it what he might stand for. It’s what he is fighting, which is the possibility that we won’t win the Singularity and be swept into what he calls the infinite shattering, a kind of eternal Hell state. I’m scared because to believe him, and help him, to follow his lead, means accepting this possibility as well. Its the scariest thing one has to face, the idea that there may not be a meta fail-safe. It makes oblivion death seem SO preferable. No wonder the deluded part of the Mom force is seeking oblivion. A way out. A way to end it. 

To really be with Christ means taking all this on. 

The mechanic crew finally got the engine running. We drove to the end of the lot before it sputtered and died again.

Don’t you see? The RV failing to run is all metaphor. The spirit of the Mother is in this ancient vehicle. It may be on its last legs but it has a lot of character. 

But for a second, I had watched the exposed engine hum and purr, her heart, roaring to life, emitting CO2 fumes. After so much sweat and toil and waiting.

She must be testing my patience. How badly do you want to put your normal life on hold to help this guy who may or may not be the Chief Shepherd HaMashiach?

Messiah or madman? The question is eating me up.

I express to him my growing desire to leave, to go home. He berates me for wanting to return to my egoic life. They all do this, he says. People who come and go from his life. Return to what is safe. I tell him I miss my dog, he says to deal with it. Our eternity is what is on the line here. 

On day 7 the RV gets started, barely. It huffs and puffs to get moving and requires rubbing a couple of exposed wires together in order to turn the engine on. After a couple miles the exhaust spewing from the engine throughout the interior of the vehicle is too much for me. He stops for gas and I pack up my duffle bag, my bags of trash and recycling, and leave the RV quickly, before he can berate me again. He catches up to me and we exchange quick, frustrated goodbyes. He gives me a hug and says he loves me but that I’m such a baby. I scowl and turn away.

I call a taxi to the Miami airport.

The full story of my trip to meet Z has been posted as a page HERE.


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Jason Bickford, American ULTRA, David Bowie Code

PART 1 – De-Occulting Jason James Bickford (Unified Code Theory)

I wrote a piece on this man a couple years ago, called ‘They Play Multiple Roles: Archons in Masks” but new information has come to light and he deserves a fresh look. The kid gloves are coming off in this post…

First of all, to be clear about who he is and who he works for, lets look at this crossword puzzle shot he always flashes near the beginning of his Youtube videos:

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The highlighter always goes down to circle number 5, “Plane Downers” as a 9/11 reference perhaps, but now I am going to circle what has been in our faces, hidden in plain sight all this time:

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Number 1, “Agency supplying material.” That is where Bickford is getting his information. A 3-letter agency. So when he says that his work is overseen by Sophia, that is code for the agencies who themselves are running on Samaelic intelligence.

Some of his work is interesting, for example he introduced me a couple years back to the ubiquity of the mask-wearing, role switching that these archontic Empty-Body vessels, (or bloodline families if you prefer) do to play your various celebrities, politicians, gatekeepers etc. But really that information was probably gleaned from Ed Chiarini’s work over at, who was exposing this stuff back in 2012. Bickford didn’t appear on the scene until around 2015.

The esoteric juxtapositions, the film and TV samples and cross-referencing codes are all there, I’m not denying that, but then he spends the rest of his time doing two things: anagramming news article bylines, and the overlays method, both of which I still maintain are a waste of time, mental or intellectual pornography leading you nowhere. A time-suck, not much better than the kind of pseudo-gematria that Zachary Hubbard is espousing.

If you are not familiar with his work, here is what he does: he takes a mainstream news article and copies the journalist’s names into –

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He then spends the majority of his video pontificating on the mytho-poetic meanings behind the various combinations he can anagram with the journalist’s names, convinced that Sophia and her angels put them there as easter eggs for us to find.

Problem is, you can usually get hundreds of different multi-word combinations, making it a kind of cherry-picking fest which is not too different from, say, using 10-20 different English cyphers to find embedded media gematria number patterns (which Bickford correctly debunks).

But don’t you see Jason? You are doing the same thing Hubbard does with numbers only you do it with words.

And when you flip an image around in your so-called “overlays method” to find hidden imagery, you are still doing the same thing:

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He takes old classical art pieces, decreases the opacity and flips, or inverts them to create a new, overlayed image. Of course the eye, which is trained to spot patterns, is going to see things, usually little monsters and demons in the new overlayed image.  Keeping you spinning your wheels in circles, going nowhere. He puts out hundreds of videos doing this,  and while his work isn’t viral, he has a small dedicated group of loyal followers lapping it up. Anyone who leaves a comment speaking out against his work with the kind of criticisms I am mentioning, will have their comment deleted. That shows you the kind of person he is, he is not into free speech, he is into having people feed into his ego.

I’m not normally into writing these kind of articles critiquing another’s work, but in this case I feel I must because what we have here is a very intelligent person deliberately misleading people who reach a certain point in their truth-seeking journey; a person who is clearly working for an agency to corral people into his schizoid chaotic pattern mayhem that takes some truth and scrambles it in with a bunch of nonsense.

His videos are informative if you don’t get sucked into his deliberate misdirection, his sleight of hand card tricks. Bickford is saying, “look at what my left hand is doing with these cool anagrams!” while you don’t notice his right hand in the corner putting out something valid and important, flashing it briefly on the screen for a second but not explaining it. But showing you that he knows it’s there, but he isn’t paid to talk about it. But meanwhile, it’s all hooray for Jason! A+ English vocabulary student.

Take that report card home to Mommy.

On a personal note, he has done this with my work as well. For example when I put out my article entitled “Sophia Drowning,” mentioning a line from Tool’s album “Aenema,” as well as the band E.L.O., he posted a video several days later with this:

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Look at the title. That video was posted Feb. 10th, my article was posted Feb. 5th.

I see you seein’ me, Jason.

He has done similar things with Z, the individual I am in contact with and have been writing about/interviewing recently, showing that he and the agency he works for knows all about Z and are trying to intimidate him.

It is fitting that he has taken the name ‘Jason’ in this cycle. To recap what Z says about that name, “I mean clearly batman is piece of shit. He is evil. Not Ra’s Al Ghul, not his daughter, not Bane, Batman is evil. Hopefully that was clear. This guy is Jason. Jason as regards to sacred Hebrew periods in what Jason always refers to. When you have the holy temple, Jason always refers to these corrupted high priests. All the corrupted high priests in the so called inter-testamental periods were taking the name Jason to say they were Hellenized. They might be doing all the duties of the high priest but they were not kosher, they took the name Jason to show they were Bacchus, Dionysus, they were with the Hellenization. 

…Jason always means that. Jason is Bacchus, Dionysus and drumroll…Jesus. Jesus is not the Christ. Jesus is a fraud. Christs’ name is Michael. Jesus is a fraud, he is Enlil, he is a joker. Jesus is Jason. The Hellenized Bacchus. Now there is a whole thing going on with Jason, James, John, Jack, Yaakov, Jacob. A lot of pattern play there.(SOURCE)”

So we have the name ‘Jason’ as the joker, and his last name is coded as well. Bickford. He is always going on about ‘flick your bic.’ ‘Bic’ is a company that makes lighters. Think, fire. And a ‘ford’ means a pass or a crossing. So ‘Bickford’ means the fire at a pass or crossing. What a name for a gatekeeper! You get to a crossing that’s blocked by a firewall. No trespassing, truth-seeker, but look at these cool anagrams! Perfect name for an agent of Ashlodai/Asmodeus (Hebrew translation: ‘the fire that is never enough’). The information fiend. Neil Gaiman’s novel American Gods depicts him as ‘Mr. World.’

Wiki: “Mr. World is the villain in the American Gods story. He’s the leader at the center of the New Gods — the gods of media and technology who people now worship instead of the old gods.” 

PART 2 – The Bowie/Cobain, Anti-Christ/Christ Code

We are going to segue a bit here and talk about David Bowie, but you will see at the end how it’s all connected. Jason Bickford made a couple of videos, which have since been removed, called The David Bowie Code and the Cobain Code. But according to Z, he left out some key details which seem to implicate himself in the following pattern. This is a transcript of a recorded conversation between myself and Z, late March of 2020.

Z: David Bowie was well acquainted with Aleister Crowley. And he stood in the circle and took over for Aleister Crowley. They had a very particular ritual in which they switched who was – before Crowley was no more, Crowley passed the baton to David Bowie. He was not just what people believe they know him as, as being the kind of zany creepy side of the light side of the yucky side of the occult, not at all. He was a deep deep yucky side of the occult. They had a ritual trading ceremony between Aleister Crowley and him. He was rigorously skilled in the occult. He stood in the circle of Thoth and switched places with Crowley. You could comb through his stuff for a long time and really see what he was saying. He had his Hollywood side, his Hollywood frame, his marketing brand – 

Gabe: He was also kind of gender bendy.

Z: He was very gender bendy. He was one of the early ones who was doing that….anyway, David Bowie, there is nothing simple about the man. So he wrote the song ‘the man who sold the world.‘

Gabe: So who is the man who sold the world? 

Z: It depends, there are multiple angles and layers to that proposition.

Gabe: At first I thought it was Hitler. 

Z: No, well maybe depicting the same pattern.

Gabe: Because we’re told he died, and the lyrics go “I thought you died a long long time ago.”

Z: “Who me? oh no we never lost control…”

Gabe: Yeah so I thought they were talking about WW2, about the Nazi’s actually winning the war…

Z:  Well the thing is, the German Wehrmacht was defeated. But the SS Reich was not defeated, they moved to America, 20,000 of the upper echelons of the SS Reich moved to america, not just the top Nazis of project paperclip, a handful of Nazi scientists. No it was 20,000 if the SS Reich took over their positions in America. So yeah the German Wehrmacht…the thing is wars don’t even happen. They are just theaters, they even call it the theater of war. Anyway…but people go and sign up for that sim and get loaded up into their brain the impressions of what they are doing. Just like any day to day activity, like this isn’t actually – how its happening isn’t what is actually happening. Anyway…

Gabe: Well people are shooting each other down…. 

Z: Are they?

Gabe: I don’t know, I’ve never been in a war.

Z: I mean it is definitely an experience in the sim, I mean they definitely walk away with that movie. Total recall though, I’m just saying.

Gabe: You mean it could be like pre-loaded memories that they are getting?

Z: It’s all sorts of things, yes, they sign up for that sim. Anyway, Bowie is not a simple guy, so you’ve got his framework of who he was as a Hollywood actor, everything from (the movie) Labyrinth, other roles I can’t remember at the moment, and of course his very prolific musical career, rainbowie, pull the bow bowie, I’m gonna shoot you with this arrow in my bowie bowie. Kesheth, (hebrew word for bow) the Hebrew whole rainbow thing, and that becomes a whole thing with keshi. There are a lot of places that code goes. 

2 Samuel 1:18 He said, “Teach this [kesheth] to the people of Judah.” (It is recorded in the Book of Jashar.) – GOD’S WORD Translation.

2 Samuel 1:18 (Also he bade them teach the children of Judah the use of the bow: behold, it is written in the book of Jasher.) – King James Version


Bowie in Labyrinth (1996)

Z: And then you could go through those lyrics and stuff. But, like I said, he got into a ceremonial circle, took over as Thoth momentarily, but he was not meant to be that priest, he was temporarily holding the position between Crowley and the next bearer, Jason James Bickford, of the legalistic priest Thoth position, Topher Grace.

But anyways, as far as the Bowie thing goes, there were a lot of optics to his presentation, being in that 80’s style glam. Early goth – 

Gabe: There was something in Zoolander where he showed up…


Z: Oh you know what one of his last roles was, was Nikolai Tesla in the Prestige. It’s not the kind of role he usually plays, because he was all proper, his lines were very sobering. That’s when you know, when an actor deviates from their normal so much they are probably going to be dead soon; the Heath Ledger syndrome.

Gabe: And actually in that role he is trying to dissuade the guy from doing the magic.

Z: He is like ‘I got contracted into this circle, I’m stuck here. You don’t want to do it. It’s not so prestigious, haha, it’s not as glamorous as it looks. Don’t do it. I’m trapped here, you don’t have to be.’ But of course he can’t resist himself and does it anyway.

Gabe: Hugh Jackman’s character, yeah.

Z: Jachim and Boaz, jacking him off…. It just goes on and on. They don’t miss any tricks, everything is done by Sophianic intelligence and Samaelic proportioning, so it all gets in there.

Gabe: Yeah it’s too much to just be humans thinking this up. It’s too organized.

Z: Especially the stupid humans you generally see out there, who can’t keep up with tying their own shoes. If you talk to these directors without that guiding principle telling them what to do, they wouldn’t know shit about this stuff. They know where their yacht is…that’s about it.

Gabe: And it’s interesting that they go to Colorado to meet Tesla.

Z: Where Bickford lives, and the whole color red? Because he had to pass the torch with the blood. He keeps giving himself away on purpose, he wants you to figure it out. He goes from Dusty Westfield (he grew up in Westfield Massachusetts) to Colorado, the color red, like go soak dust in blood.


<The recording got interrupted here, but we pick up again by connecting the Bowie code to the Kurt Cobain code, through the song “Man who sold the world” originally by Bowie but which was covered by Nirvana. Nirvana also covered the Meatpuppets song “Lake of Fire.” written by another Curt, Curt Kirkwood.>

Lake of Fire lyrics:

Where do bad folks go when they die?

They don’t go to heaven where the angels fly

They go down to the lake of fire and fry

Won’t see ’em again till the fourth of July

The recording picks up here:

Z: …They all do the fourth of July because the fourth of July is the name for Satan, ‘independence.’ independence day, the movie, radical alien invasion, invasion of your consciousness by these external forces,  its independence. You’re gonna be in trouble, Bluebeam is going to be switched on. That’s why – so you go from a lot of these bands mentioning fourth of July – Better Than Ezra has a big moment in the song ‘Good:’ 


Well, maybe I’ll call or I’ll write you a letter

Now maybe we’ll see on the fourth of July

But I’m not too sure, and I’m not too proud

Well I’m not sure, and I’m not too proud to say

Which connects to the Meat Puppets, Lake of Fire, Independence, being called up for judgement, it’s mentioned in the book of Isaiah, Ezekiel, Jeremiah, Revelation, playing off the motifs in Daniel, judgment day, Joel, Amos, the prophets, they are talking about this moment when they’ll be resurrected to judgement through the lake of fire. And then that immediately goes, to the animated meat sacks, the dolls, played by characters, dolls animated by characters tethered to a soul, you’ve got meat puppets. Things that are operating the meat sacks. you move from there to the fact that Cobain covered both ‘Lake of Fire’ consecutively to ‘The Man Who Sold the World,’ and now you are seeing the duel going on between a depictive Christ character like Cobain who is always using all the Jesus imagery, always putting himself as the martyr for Christ, over and over again, dueling with the Anti-Christ Bowie, who put himself in the circle of Crowley. 

Some of the connection might have been back to Sam Weiss in Fringe, and the fact that David Robert Jones is Davy Jones, the heart of Davy Jones, dealing with Calypso, HP Lovecraft’s Cthulhu, Poseidon, Pussy Den, Neptune, the sea, John the Baptist code coming through all the time, you start to see that these things are totally tight, so we are still talking about the same thing. You’ve got Bickford saying that he is John the Baptist, he is the ultimate JJB, you’ve got Jack Mccaig, [who has given us the financial keys to the kingdom with his trust work, just like John the Baptist],  these are all Neptune/Poseidon connections to the Bowie code that are playing as Thoth, the man who sold the world, the Ibis.

Gabe: So just so that I’m clear the man who sold the world is Satan, in a very simplistic sense?

Z: No, the man who sold the world is Christ. It’s an inversion. Like I was saying there is nothing straight. They are putting some items that belong in column A, they switch them over to column B, to confuse you. Like these twenty things belong in column A and these 20 things belong in column B and then they mix them up.

Gabe: So Christ sold the world because the world is mom’s world?

Z: It’s really more like the man who bought the world, but they flip it. On their side of the aisle the man who sold the world, is a reference back to Sophia giving the world over to Christ, in remorse and regret, that part of Mom, surrendering the world to Christ. And part of that pino/phagocytosis is the thing that Christ had to sell that world, the world of heaven to fall into Mom’s world to fix this.


So they are both making an exchange here. Some kind of import/export van delay mayhem. They are both giving things up in this exchange to come together for the ultimate marriage.

Gabe: That’s a positive depiction?

Z: Yeah, that’s why the whole thing is an ironic humor – 

Gabe: Because it’s sung by the Anti-Christ Bowie, 

Z: And then the Christ figure Cobain. Like, they are exchanging places as they are talking. “I laughed and shook his hand, for years and years we roamed. We gazed and gazed and stared. We walked a million miles. I thought you died alone.” Like, oh you’re still alive, I’m still alive? “Oh no, not me, we never lost control. You’re face to face with the man who sold the world.” They are both saying it in opposite directions!

And you know Cobain is a vicar. He’s just a vicar. That’s the big difference. Bowie was a guy. Like he had his front as a big celebrity musician and minor actor. But he was a guy, like he was a player, like he was dealing with Aleister Crowley. He was a very talented, very knowledgeable intricately skilled occultist. Cobain was just…Cobain.

Gabe: A puppet?

Z: He was a vicar for me. That’s what I’m saying. Cobain was always my vicar, my placeholder. For them he meant this, and I was influencing him to do that. Whereas Bowie himself was the guy. Who is still alive, 100%. It’s still vacillating in total control between him and Bickford. Like he hasn’t fully passed that over. He took the baton from Crowley, and it has been a fledgling very shepherded Bickford the whole time, by the agencies to be who they want him to be. Another very interesting short series to watch is Damien, very revealing, very good….

Some Notes of Clarification

  • Why the word ‘independence‘ means Satan:

No-one has independent destinies. That go-it-alone attitude will get you nowhere. Either we all reach heaven as a collective, or none of us do. So we want to be individuated, but not independent. Big difference there.

It is interesting that this information is coming at a time when we are being told by the media to practice ‘social distancing.’ This is Satan, it’s espousing independentism.

  • Why Z used the phrase ‘van delay‘ in reference to the import/export or phagocytosis aspect of the situation; where the souls of the Father enter into Mom’s world, and then Sophia in remorse giving the world back over to Christ:

Here is a depictive example of how the cross-referencing Sophianic code works. Remember that scene from the film, ‘Inception,’ where the van is falling off the bridge in slow motion?

Get it? It’s a van delay, or a van being delayed by slow motion, due to the time dilation effect of going into a dream within a dream.

Now eight years prior to that film, there was an episode of Seinfeld, where, Vandelay Industries [was] a fictional company that George Costanza claims to have been interviewed for as a latex salesman in when applying for an extension at the unemployment office in the Season Three episode, “The Boyfriend, Part 1 (SOURCE).” When asked about what the company does, George mentions vaguely that it does import/export.

So we have a 1992 Seinfeld episode providing predictive programming for the 2010 film Inception, and then what do we have seven years later in 2017? The Mandalay Bay casino shooting!

Van Delay,


This is how the code works. These connections may sound tenuous to newcomers but the more you study how this all works the more interconnected it all gets, until it is too late to dismiss as coincidence theory.

PART 3 – Operation Tough Guise and The Topher Grace Connection

Z maintains that Jason Bickford is also part of the mask wearing, role switching archontic phenomenon, and that he and actor Topher Grace are one and the same.

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The ages fit, the body profiles match, sort of short, scrawny types, the high pitched fast talking cadence they both share. Maybe. But let’s examine Topher Grace’s (who became famous for his role in ‘That 70’s Show’) latest appearance, in the film American ULTRA.

This is a film which provides soft disclosure around MK Ultra, and making sleeper agents, assassins who do their work in an alter, and carry a front personality that is usually unaware of this. In the film, the unlikely mild-mannered stoner geek-type Jesse Eisenberg is the one with the assassin or super soldier programming, so the movie comes across as comedy, but it is much more than that.


Topher Grace plays an ambitious CIA director, who wants to eliminate all operatives like Jesse, claiming that the program is a failure. So to try and get a promotion, he conceives of Operation Tough Guys, which is to send a team of hired guns to kill Jesse’s character ‘Mike.’

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The mission ends up backfiring as the hit squad trigger Mike’s sleeper assassin alter out of hiding, and he takes them all out, one by one, Jason Bourne style.


Now the point of all this is that Jesse Eisenberg, playing Mike, is really representing Z, whose last name is Ben-Michael, and who, if you haven’t figured it out by now, is claiming, with every ounce of his being, to be the chief shepherd, the Christ Michael. (Update: we are ALL the Mike/Messiah that Jesse is depicting in this film, the hero of our own destinies). 

…Now many films depict a Christ figure. The fact that Eisenberg is named ‘Mike’ is no accident. There is usually a Christ figure dueling with an Anti-Christ figure – that is where Topher Grace comes in. His character is trying to destroy Christ. And if he is really Bickford, that is what Bickford’s channel is doing as well, gatekeeping people from reaching gnosis, true knowledge, as shown in Part One.

His other channel, ‘The Gnostic Reclamation:’

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His featured video on his homepage is called ‘Tough Guise.’ Just like American ULTRA’s Operation Tough Guys. So he is leaving clues for us, he wants us to find out who he really is. That video also features orthodox Jews with long beards, and even a shot of ZZ Top, who is famous for his long beard.

Z, (like ZZ Top) has a beard and a Jewish background. There have been several other instances, like I said in Part One, of Bickford implicitly leaving messages for Z, saying ‘I know who you are,’ and by extension, the agencies, and the dark occult world.

The two of them are intricately connected. Bickford is from Massachusetts. Z is from Connecticut. These east coast states neighbor each other. They are roughly the same age. When Z, several years back, started talking to folks about how celebrities like actors have these codes which follow them around from movie to movie, it was not long after that when Bickford appeared on the youtube scene, making videos on the same thing.

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Corona Virus Predictive Programming in Film ‘Contagion’ – Truthiracy

The 2011 thriller ‘Contagion,’ about a deadly viral outbreak features some numbers and themes that map onto the current Corona scare, providing evidence that this entire ‘pandemic’ is either a complete hoax or else a deliberate planned attack by the powers-that-shouldnt-be. Either way, it was in the playbook going years back as we shall see. Credit to this particular find goes to youtuber Truthiracy. Also oddly enough, we will see  evidence that links the recent Kobe Bryant death (or more probable death hoax) to the Corona issue as well.

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Part of this film actually takes place in China, where the Corona supposedly originated.

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In this scene, an official from the World Heath Organization is saying that there have been 89,000 documented cases of the contagion outbreak.

Now when you go to Wikipedia and look up the Corona virus, it says that as of March 2nd, 2020, there have been 89,000 confirmed cases!

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Notice also that March 2nd is 3/2/2020 giving us the infamous Skull and Bones number 322.

I started tracking this number back when it was flashed in ‘A Dark Knight Rises‘ right before a terrorist attack at the football stadium by the villain Bane:

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Of course this was the film playing at the Aurora theater which mass shooter James Holmes supposedly shot up back in 2012 (an event which was itself predicted in the 1986 Batman comic):Screen Shot 2019-10-24 at 10.53.01 PM

The same film which predicted Sandy Hook,occuring later that year:Screen Shot 2019-10-24 at 10.57.50 PM

Not only that, but on the wiki page for the film Contagion, it says it was initially shown in 3,222 theaters!

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In the trailer for the film, this airport scene is flashed:

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Gates M14-M21. M = 13. 21 minus 14 = 7. So combining 13 and 7 we have 137, the 33rd prime number. No surprise there, where you have 322 and predictive programming, 33 is always nearby.

From Eric Dubay‘s new video:

Now a insightful comment on Truthiracy’s video reads:

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Kobe buried in Corona Del Mar.

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Of course the fiery helicopter crash story we are fed was predicted itself in an animated short film and in a Nike commercial.

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In the Nike commercial, Kobe throws a basketball at a helicopter, bringing it down in a fiery inferno:

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Nike slaying the Bull God EL.

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L-akers – EL acres, the land of God. (EL in Hebrew is spelled ‘Aleph’ – the bull, and ‘Lamed’ the staff):

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Helicopter – HEL (EL) – icopter.

And you won’t hear Truthiracy say this, but this is God the Mother, Cinder-(EL)LA, and since these are her sick games, EL is conjuring her alter Sama-EL, the evil step-MOTHER. (The architect in the Matrix movies).


The Goddess Nike slaying the bull God EL is thus the Mother attempting to kill herself, a kind of cosmic suicide programming. Or maybe a more positive spin is she is trying to kill off her dark alter Samael and his fleet of Agent Smiths, the viral archon parasites.

“Hi Sam.”

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And don’t forget (EL)even, nicknamed ‘EL’ the telekinetic/telepath girl from Stranger Things, dating one of the boys named ‘Mike’ or the archangel Michael.

But we were talking about HEL-icopters right?

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And I think we mentioned Batman somewhere in there…that might have been part of this this code…Screenshot 2020-03-11 at 4.00.00 PM

The gears of Samael are really turning now.

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‘Corona’ means crown. This is a reference to the king, the Father.  The crown chakra. The darkness wants us to associate the crown with fear, disease and sickness.

Jack fell down
And broke his crown,
And Jill came tumbling after

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One more point that youtuber Jason Bickford made about Corona:

Corona is cheap beer, its piss beer. They are taking the piss, british slang for playing a joke or trick – hoax.

Which is why you have to drink your Corona beer with a wedge of lime.

Get it? You’ll have your corona virus with a side of lyme disease (what is likely a perceived bio-weapon coupled with an actual bio-weapon).

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Don’t you see? They are taking the piss, they are having a laugh, at our expense. Don’t fall for the fear program.

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It is quite possible that the only thing really spreading with this corona scare is FEAR.

“Black insect flak attacking vitality centers, feeling for a point of intersection…” – WSB

On Kobe: I’m no longer one of those truthers saying that these celebrities are being ritually sacrificed to the Illuminati, that’s low-level conspiranoid culture; no, Kobe is another one of these mask-wearing archons, he’s part of the black insect flak, he’s one of the crab people of Minraud, their hot claws feeling for a point of intersection. He will re-surface with a new face, most likely as a Hollywood actor or maybe a rapper. WSB writes, “What does a virus do wherever it can dissolve a hole and find traction? It starts eating – and what does it do with what it eats? It makes exact copies of itself that start eating to make more copies and so forth to the virus power the fear hate virus slowly replaces the host with virus copies – Program Empty Body.”

That’s what these celebrities are – Empty Bodies, switching faces, switching roles, manipulated remotely with computers.

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A Dialogue Between Sophia and Christ in Thom Yorke’s Album ‘ANIMA’

“I read that the gnostics believe when we are born we are forced to forget where we have come from in order to deal with the trauma of arriving in this life.” – Thom Yorke

“It’s like we were watching a movie, and then suddenly we’re acting in it.” – Xanopticon


Man falling into Mom’s world

This post will analyze the lyrics behind Thom Yorke’s (of Radiohead) solo album Anima. This album is coded and loaded with deep esoteric wisdom, which can be gleaned with some help from my discussions with Z on how the Gnostic Sophia myth plays out in all things. Z is an ‘insider’ so to speak.

He told me that Thom Yorke’s lyrics, like most popular music, was ghost written by children in the MK Ultra projects being ‘mused.’ This means that the dark forces find gifted children who can connect to the Source Field and channel/generate this material, and then the material is extracted by weaponized psychics working for the dark side. Z was used in this way as a child. He claims to have written almost all of Nirvana’s lyrics. He  also co-authored the Secret Space Program fictional narrative being bandied about by Archontic half-truthers like Aug Tellez, Corey Goode, David Wilcock, and basically anyone interviewed by Project Camelot or Gaia TV. 

This phenomenon of musing children to write lyrics, movie ideas, etc. is what Donald Marshall was pretending to single-handedly be for practically the entire pop music industry and Hollywood.

Without further ado…

Song: Dawn Chorus (track #4)

The whole album is a conversation between the son, the Christ principle or Christ body and the Cosmic Mother. Yorke’s soprano voice is thus a good spout-piece or conduit for both these masculine and feminine principles, anima and animus.

Verse 1 of this song is Christ talking to the Mother, or what can also be described as the Father talking to her through one of the children of Christ. Through someone who has really gripped the Father principle, is saying to the Mother, to Sophia:

“Back up the cul-de-sac

Come on, do your worst

You quit your job again

             And your train of thought”           

Her ‘job’ being to release, to let go of the material and the karma, in order to bridge masculine and feminine in the divine union of the Twin Souls. In the Gnostic bent of this, (and Z’s take) is that the process is completed by Father and Mother Sophia hesitated by her hall of mirrors, the illusiory material world that she helped create.  The female soul always seems to be the weaker one in need of saving by the man. Or in traditional religious orthodoxy, Eve is blamed for the Fall. But really on the highest interpretation of this its traditionally the failings of the woman in the pair of opposites to return to the Biune Spirit because she represents matter, and the male spirit, another diad.

“If you could do it all again

A little fairy dust

A thousand tiny birds singing

If you must, you must

Please let me know

When you’ve had enough

Of the white light

Of the dawn chorus

If you could do it all again”

The Christ principle (who saves her) is taunting her about how we have to keep repeating these cycles, or reflections of self from her broken mirror, so she can play out her narcissism this way, through these bodies, the ‘dawn chorus’ of vessels controlled by the One, by the Mother.

Second verse, Sophia’s reply:

“If you could do it all again

Yeah, without a second thought

I don’t like leaving

The door shut

I think I missed something

But I’m not sure what

In the middle of the vortex

The wind picked up

Shook up the soot

From the chimney pot

Into spiral patterns

Of you, my love”

‘Her love’ being the Father. But by thinking that she ‘keeps missing something,’ and going back, resetting her Matrix, she is doing the one thing that will keep her from seeing him again, her bridegroom.

Song: I Am a Very Rude Person (track #5)

The beat picks up a bit on the very next track, we lose the whimsy love story and turn to a more dark bluesy pattern. This is the Mother speaking to Christ in one of her Samaelic/Satanic/Transhumanist moods. Wanting to escape the process started by the Father, the Cosmic Moment.  Stretch separation to the breaking point.

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“Won’t bother me

You don’t mean a thing, but it won’t bother me

You don’t mean a thing, but it won’t bother me

You don’t mean a thing, but it won’t bother me”

(Mom is downplaying the importance of the Christ anomaly, and of the soul.)

[Verse 1]

“I have to find my way in the dark

(You don’t mean a thing, but it won’t bother me)

I have to take a knife to your art

(You don’t mean a thing, but it won’t bother me)

I have to find some way to escape

I have to walk but I wanna stay”

This desire for escape is the Demiurge seeking oblivion, a way out. (Or else a way to stay, to linger in the material world, like the fallen angels.) This is the fall, this is the root of the darkness we are up against. The parasites in power don’t want to steal your energy to use it for something, they just want to eat it for oblivion. Think about how a parasite like a leech works. They steal energy from the host until the host dies, but once their host is dead they run out of a food source and die as well. THAT’S WHAT OBLIVION MEANS. That is what the ‘Illuminati’ REALLY are, stripped of all veneer and science fiction. Leeches seeking death of the host and then death of themselves. The mistake that 99% of conspiracy theorists make is trying to find a logical reason for the game moves the so-called ‘power elite’ make on the game-board. This has them scratching their heads and debating and spinning their wheels ad infinitum. 

[Verse 2]

“I have to hope this spell’s going to break

I have to destroy to create

I have to be rude to your face

I’m breaking up your turntables

Now I’m gonna watch your party die”

Satan coming to break up the party. Party foul.

So you can see how in many of these inspired albums we have this love story between the child-become Father (activated human) and the Mother. A love story which inevitably turns sour because she goes into one of her moods, switching into her dark alters, the principalities of Samael, Lilith and Azazel, etc.

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We’re led through predictive programming not to trust her, even though she is also the Goddess of wisdom. It’s just that it comes with the Archonic, buzzing technoid insect-like demonism as a package deal. It’s the Lucifer who wanted to be first and do it better, its the Anti-Christ forces wanting to rule in Hell rather than serve in Heaven. That’s what we came here to eat, to digest inside her, thus liberating her and humanity once and for all. But we are digesting that part within ourselves as well.

Some say we are reaching an apex point or culmination, for good or bad, on a solar, cosmic scale, where humanity as a collective can either ascend to higher states or be absorbed by the sleep of oblivion back into Source, where their Divine Ego that is coeternal to Source and never incarnated here, can wait a new Solar Cycle.

Song: Twist (track #3)


“It’s like weed
A boy on a bike who is running away
An empty car in the woods, the motor left running
It’s like weed”

These lines are talking about what the alt media is calling “NPC’s” or Non-player characters – ‘an empty car with the motor left running…’ – bodies without souls, being played by the demonic AI take-over. They grow ‘like weeds:’ The ‘boy on the bike running away’ are the children of the Father, the ones with souls, getting lost in the shuffle, absorbing the habits of the NPC’s, drowning in their frequency.

Song: The Axe (track #7)

Voice – the Christ principle, upset with Mom

[Verse 1]

“Goddamned machinery

Why don’t you speak to me?

One day I am gonna take an axe to you

The pitter patter

What does it matter?

And where’s that love

You promised me?

I’m pierced by long nails

By coloured windmills

Your soft sustaining envelope”

The ‘machinery’ of the Mother, her machinations, she won’t speak to him, Sophia is avoiding him, letting the AI run things. ‘Where’s that love you promised?’ he asks. And, ‘I’m pierced by long nails,’ you are crucifying me here, Mom. I am suffering in your world, the material world of her Matrix, her envelope.


“I thought we had a deal

I thought we had a deal

I thought we had a deal…”

He is saying, ‘remember our love letters back and forth in track four ‘Dawn Chorus’ what happened to that part of you? What happened to our deal?’

Now we have Sophia’s reply:

[Verse 2]

“You bastards speak to me

Have you no pity?

Give me a goddamned good reason

Not to jack it all in

You wooden soldiers

I’m daring you to turn yourselves on”

‘To jack it all in’ meaning to plug the children of the Father fully into the AI matrix, (the desire to remain in the physical dream and separated from Source)

‘I’m daring you to turn yourselves on’ she is taunting us, daring us, to become activated humans. She is speaking to the people who have not awakened to the truth within themselves, too infested with the archons. She is calling us out for falling for her traps.

Song: Impossible Knots (track #8)

Voice: Lamenting Sophia

[Verse 1]

“I’m heading in the wrong direction

I can’t make the big connection

And in my line of business

There is no room for mess

[Verse 2]

I’m tied up in impossible knots”

The ‘knots’ are her MPD alters, her fixation for all her characters/clones/biobots/NPC’s) which are part of herself, they are her looking through double mirrors, infinite reflections, all tied up.

“I’ll take anything you got

I’ll take anything you got…”

A concession. She will take any of the activated, awakened humans we can muster up, as evidence that it is safe for her to dissolve, to complete the Cosmic moment. In true cosmic time, all that has actually happened is that the Father, one half of the Original State of Being, has dissolved into individuated souled humans. But its not enough.

As Elena Unger writes, “Time began nine months before the birth of Christ and ended in the same moment, but…it made, “so to speak, a great deal of noise in all directions.” 

Everything that has occurred after, all these Matrix cycles we’ve been playing out, are in dream-time, and it will fold in on itself when the Singularity hits, what is called in Kabbalah ‘the crossing of the 150th gate,’ the Omega Point.


“I’ll be ready

I’ll be ready

I’ll be ready

I’ll be ready…”

She is reassuring us that when the final gate hits she will be ready to dissolve, to finish the process and restore the Holy Matrimony. Hope to God! This is the most optimistic part of the album. But again, we can’t become complacent and trust her, she is not whole, not until all the archons are digested (which won’t fully happen by the projected date; doesn’t mean its hopeless, it just means it will be that much harder to win, in that vital threshold moment between the cycles, in the abode of souls.) William Burroughs describes archontic attack as “black insect flak stabbing at his vitality centers.” This is what we must prepare for.

Final track: Runwayaway

“We are forever
We are forever
That’s when you don’t
That’s when you know
This is when you know who your real friends are
Who your real friends are…”

Immortality is gained by the marriage of the twin souls that have purged their karma in the post-death astral realms. In order to withstand these realms you need to “know who your friends are” which are the memories of good deeds, service to other, etc. which will help you navigate your path through your bad deeds and demonic thoughts and attachments.

Obadiah 1:4 (WEB) Though you mount on high as the eagle, and though your nest is set among the stars, I will bring you down from there, says Yahweh.”  – SophiYAH.

The Divine Ego must incarnate into flesh, the Most High will bring us down from their, the nest among the stars, to experience duality and separation. But these are only illusiory concepts as they only exist in the Son and not the Father. Or in aeon Sophia but not her consort, the Christos, etc.

“The wings are clipped
The bird half-cut
Gone is the one who made her home among the stars
A fall from grace
Becomes her art
Digging down
No looking up
When the riches and rewards are not enough
And all God’s children could give a fuck…” -Twelve Foot Ninja

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Sophia Drowning, and Water-As-Time Symbolism

“Listen to the tales as we all rationalize,

Our way into the arms of the savior.

Feigning all the trials and the tribulations.

None of us have actually been there,

Not like you…” – Tool

I’m a big fan of heavy metal music, and recently I noticed a repeating pattern on the album covers of three different metal albums from three separate bands. The theme was of a vaguely feminine figure drowning or diving into a body of water:

When a pattern like this emerges one can assume that occult communication is happening. A co-creative force is behind these bands, what James Bickford calls ‘the backseat Uber driver,’ using these artists as vessels for their own purpose.

If you ask Z, these occult forces or principalities – whether benefic or malefic – are coming from the cosmic Mother, the two sides of the Goddess. Sophia in white, and Samael the Demiurge, in black. This is the key that unlocks the Gnostic symbolism frequently employed by Hollywood dark wizardry and becomes like self-replicating memes across the culture. It serves to kill the anima in men and turn the sexes against each other and away from Source Creation, which is seen as dead, or as a cruel, unloving God.

“My one, when all is said and done
You’ll believe God is a woman” – Ariana Grande

In my research, the female is blamed for the fall because she represents matter and the male spirit. The fall is necessary for the spirit to differentiate its spirit atoms amongst matter, thus learning good and evil. So she held on, fearing the loss of Self, which became the fall. Their drama now unfolds in humanity, how the incarnated Souls (the Son) must become the bridegroom, restoring the lost love, which is the Event, the Singularity at the end of microcosmic time, the reunification of the purified Twin Souls. 

And today’s parables are not just coming through Hollywood. This code is present in obscure Scandinavian metal bands; in the lyrics and album covers, in movies and shows both domestic and foreign, and in the daily news from CNN to Buzzfeed. How is it so prevalent? Is the Illuminati THAT organized? I once thought so, but now think that Sophia’s story is simply in the information field, in the Akashic record, if you will, and we are tapping into it, whether we know it or not. The dark forces know how to tap into the Demiurgic side, their Dark Lord, and become his mouthpiece, twisting the narrative, while those artists with integrity and innocence can tap into Sophia, and become her spout piece.

The data-field we are embedded in is the Dark Goddess Kali talking to herself, here at the end of the Iron Age. Picture a maiden shipwrecked by herself on a rocky crag, surrounded by miles of ocean, howling to the moon. Slowly going insane. Waiting for the Christ, the principle of Atonement or At-One-Ment, to restore the path back to Source. (Note that sometimes the gender roles are reversed).

Let’s take a look at this drowning motif, which I’ve discussed before. We saw it in the previous post analyzing the highly esoteric film ‘The Prestige,’ where a woman drowns in a dangerous magic trick gone wrong.

We saw drowning in the show ‘The OA,‘ as a way to cross to parallel universes, a dimensional gateway. We know it was a calling card to how they program people in MK Ultra, to cause near-death-experiences (ala Arizona Wilder).

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This was also depicted in the Bourne movies. Jason Bourne was an MK Ultra programmed black assassin. They would dunk his head underwater to trigger his alter.

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Opening scene of the ‘Bourne’ series

And in Stranger Things, when the character Eleven goes to her void, or does her remote viewing, there is always water on the ground, or some type of water/drowning/transitional gateway:


And it’s funny that they call her ‘El,’ for short. El is a Hebrew name for God.

“Boast about the day when the rivers overrun,

How we rise to the height of our halo.” – Tool

We know that water is symbolic of emotion, and of spirit, and Youtuber Holographic Multiverse says that the biblical flood is spirit washing away the artificial matrix, as like a cosmic reset. Water has this dual nature: it cleanses the filth, but it can also be deadly and turbulent in its own right. It can kill.

So we know that Mom is in trouble, and thus so are we, due to as above so below, but why is this so often depicted by drowning specifically?

Revelation 12:15-16 “And the serpent poured water like a river out of his mouth after the woman, so that he might cause her to be swept away with the flood. 16 But the earth helped the woman, and the earth opened its mouth and drank up the river which the dragon poured out of his mouth.”

The female is drowning in spirit. The Son who is one with the Father needs to dive down there, into her insanity, and rescue her, revive her.

“Boast about the day when the rivers overrun,

How we rise to the height of our halo….

….It’s time for you to bring me home” – Tool

But Bob Schlenker has also shown how in the occult symbol language water is a symbol of time. Why is water representing time? Bob writes, “The first non-celestial timepieces were water clocks. The flow of time was measured by the flow of water.(SOURCE)

(Wikipedia): “Water clocks, along with sundials, are likely to be the oldest time-measuring instruments, with the only exceptions being the vertical gnomon and the day-counting tally stick. Where and when they were first invented is not known, and given their great antiquity it may never be. The bowl-shaped outflow is the simplest form of a water clock and is known to have existed in Babylon and in Egypt around the 16th century BC.”

Tudor watch commercial connecting water and time.

So if water is time, then what is drowning? It is drowning into the abysses of seemingly endless time, of the looped nightmares in the astral realm, as the karmic residue of the soul seeks purification and elimination, before the Twin Souls can be restored. However if the drowning is too severe, that Holy Marriage process fails, and the Divine Ego or Spirit Atom that gave those twin souls birth (the splitting of the Atom) returns to Heaven to await a new Solar Cycle (See Burgoyne’s Light of Egypt)

More Album Covers

Electric light orchestra – album called ‘Time’ – with water imagery. Plus a Saturn image – the keeper of time.
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If she isn’t drowning she can also be in an endless maze.

Tv show ‘Stitchers:’

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Time being stitched together, like a tapestry.

Bob writes, “The letter T is sliced through leaving most of it intact. It’s separated off with the letter S. STi ~ S -pace – Ti -me. The ST signals, Space-Time.”


In two words I could sum up what all this imagery, lyrics, movie plot themes are pointing to, its the Mother saying, “Help me.” But as Z has pointed out, she does it in a typically feminine way, through games and riddles, making us read between the lines, testing the man, to see if he is really alpha, to see if he can be assertive without her having to explicitly spell out her needs. Therefore even though she, and through her all women, are the topic, they aren’t the issue. The issue is with men, who need to grow a pair and assert themselves, and not fall victim to her games, to the mind control.

This process is played out in each man as his anima, speaking indirectly to him through his unconscious, dreams, feelings, intuition. When he ignores this part of him he disconnects from his own immortality and starts to decay. This is what has happened on the large scale. It has been shrouded in the ‘feminist movement’ but this leads, as we see to something more sinister, the Illuminati run neo-feminist movement, the gender bending, transhumanism, and eventually eugenics, getting the herd to cull itself. It’s already happening, birth rates are lower than they have ever been. Women are brainwashed to be ‘independent’ and not need men, and men are placated, by football, beer, cannabis and pornography, pacified and turned into women. Testosterone is suppressed and estrogen is promoted. Made to trust our government, to authority figures. Made to believe in science and that the news is real. Rebels are quashed, silenced, relegated to the fringes of ‘conspiranoid culture;’ the herding of the second farm.

Mother should I trust the government?” – Pink Floyd.

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Conversing With ‘Z’ (Pt. 2) – The Divine Paradox


Excerpts from my 3rd conversation with Z. I ask him about his experience as a child in the MK Ultra projects. He describes being taken to a hospital and escorted by certain white-coats to a lower-level, a restricted part of the hospital:

Z: “What happened when I went down there that day? This is probably the most common thing; now I realize I didn’t actually go down anywhere, it was a recessing into the mind, I probably got sat down in the chair and recessed into the mind. because these things don’t actually exist on this level. But it was like a round room, that they would call the hall of nightmares. They stood there, a school brick wall, hospital brick wall, bright yellow, and there was a bunch of children, a bunch of them were like me, sort of like me, and a bunch of them were useless to them. So they would have the children that were useless to them do terrible things, like shove a knife through their hand…. One of the big ones was get one of the throw-away children to put a chainsaw through their face. So they say, “oh little jimmy can stop hurting themself if you tell us what we want to know.” Which was always like a suit saying give us the oblivion codes, give us your star data, give us the rest of the equation. They would say “hi Zarkan” which was my call-up for this alter, “hi zarkan, give us your star chart to generate oblivion.” I said, “go fuck yourself,” for which I got thrown to the floor.

Gabe: if you are a child, how do you know that information? Or is it just subconscious?

Z: Yeah it was completely – it felt like a place, but it was a place in psyche, where you kind of tap into the network. In the non-fantasy version of these things, these things can only happen on the psychological network. These things can’t happen here. Parts of it are, I might have been in that room, but an aspect of it wasn’t in the material plane. So you have total access at that point to what you know, to what’s stored there. It was a knowingness.

So I was like no, I’m not going to tell you that. We can’t even tell them that. Like its deficit within the equation itself of realty. But they are like, “We want this.” I don’t really like to talk about this, because it crosses a line, if you’re not hearing the nuance, it crosses into the outlandish things people talk about. But this was a concrete real experience where a lot of psychic driving was taking place.

And what I noticed was that, I could identify who was like me, who was on the network -who was telepathic and who was not. I could see that the suits were going into the throw-away children’s heads, and making them do that. And then I went and tapped inside the children’s field who were supposed to be like me and went, ‘woah they cant see.’ So I realized no one was like me. I could do what the agents did. So I realized that the perception level in the room wasn’t equatable. The other talented children were really buying it that these children were really hurting themselves, themselves, and that if they could just tell the agents what they wanted to know, which we couldn’t even do, it’s not a thing, the suits don’t know its not a thing, because they are part of the Demiurge of ignorance, they don’t know what’s going on.

Its purely like the movie The Matrix. The way that an entity would fill a body, these suits were like that. It just comes in. and I picked up on this frequency thing, that the special children were not like me, they were not able to really fully perceive that the agents were going inside the throw-away children’s head and making them do this. Not only could I see that but I could see that the other children can’t see what I could see about that. So then I went – and this is all instantaneous – I went huh, that probably means that the agents don’t realize that I can see that. The whole thing was to play on our empathy, now I realize that those throw-away children are probably CGI, or just bodies they don’t care about, but as a child they were playing on our kindness and that we didn’t want them getting hurt because of us. That was the whole game. But the agents didn’t hear me. My bandwidth was even higher than the agents. They couldn’t hear, because it was a kind of psychic hearing. I was the most powerful thing in the room …I realized the agents don’t see a child that’s not buying it. So then i just screamed internally, psychically, at the top of my lungs, “DIE!” to all the agents. And that was called, the day I killed 157 agents and was removed from MK Ultra. This is a fact, buts it’s the kind of fact that I can’t prove the way I can prove 95% of the other things I’m telling you….

So by killing these agents, I exposed myself. So they don’t  know what to do with me, so I was in some drugged coma for like the next year, that was my third grade year, I was probably walking around like a zombie. I exposed who I was, so we were not allowed to be in MK Ultra anymore, and they shifted me and those close to me to a Russian program. That didn’t really pan out, so went to Mars, not like a colony on a planet, I mean like the plane. We shifted our frequency to the Mars plane. I’m talking about planes of consciousness, so we removed ourselves. Because there are no planets, no secret space program, I’m not talking about taking a space shuttle to Mars, no none of that fucking shit, we adjusted our consciousness to the plane Mars. But we couldn’t stay there, when we attempted to come back, the girls all died. There were 12 girls who were connected to me, they couldn’t return like I could. This is like the biggest deal, that nobody knows about it, can talk about it. This always happens, its part of the original flaw in creation, and always has a new way of playing out in each cycle.

So in 1991, this cycles version happened, and largely led by Mark Passio, who is one of the main paladins, he is a paladin. Paladins believe that only the supreme God should have all the power, and that individuals who have power are threatening to God’s power. Now if you really sort that out its absurd if God were God like that. And the catholic church is one of the vestiges carrying the paladins along. The paladin is hunting – there is a movie showing some of this called ‘Jumper’ where the guy is jumping using his psychic ability to jump and the guys are chasing him, because they don’t believe that individuals should have power.


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Interesting choice of phrase there, from this Paladin.

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But that’s Christ versus God, God the Mother, so they are kind of advocating for something that’s a logistical absurdity. If God were God why would there be this need to compete. Obviously you’re dealing with an entity over there versus an entity over here. If God were really the way they depict God, he would have all the power! Why would he be threatened? But they can’t see through their flaws and are staunch about it. A Lot of the  catholic high secret societies like Novus Dei, they’ve got these zealot paladins saying bring the power back to God. It’s just Samael, they are just talking about parts of the Mother, so you know Mark’s a paladin. In 1991 he led this a lot.

And most of us did nothing. ⅛ of our bunch attempted to defect, but you can’t actually defect, because the code doesn’t actually exist, but the ignorance believes it does. But because of what they did, and they always do, they are dedicated actors, dedicated servers to Satan. They can’t – they already did this, made this move, now we have to act out the theater, we have to reenact this all the time, that’s all it is. The souls that did this already did this on the cosmic level.

Gabe: on a previous cycle?

Z: Before the cycles even, they already fucked up, so they are bound in each cycle to Samael. There is a path to them it’s called the lake of fire, purging, it’s not eternal damnation, it’s just like a really intense bath, they need to be cleaned up. When you really get the nature of the wholeness of reality, you can’t cut out the liver and throw it over here. With The law of correspondence to the cosmic body, there is nowhere to cut something off and throw it to.

Gabe: so once they are purged, they are sort of clean slated in a way?

Z: yeah but it’s really like these cells that need to be cleansed, it’s so simple, but hard for people to see. It’s  like christmas lights in series, you can’t have a light out or none of the lights light up. Nothing is running in parallel here, everything is in series. If any individual doesn’t get lit up, we are not going to be lit up for eternity. The system is so intrinsically bound that everybody takes care of everybody. And that can be a little forcefully and aggressively because we gotta make it. Everybody is bound together. We are this singular thing but we all have individuality now. You don’t have separate destinies, either all the lights light up or none of them. You don’t have this juvenile notion in the new age or religiosity of eternal damnation for some. That’s just stupid….

Gabe: so just to clarify, when you were talking about Samael, that’s the dark aspect of the Mother?

Z: it was the original chief of the Echthroi (Pre-Archons), who led them off into this throw the mother down, break everything, cause oblivion, we’re humiliated, we can’t go back, break this shit. But eventually that transitioned, because the original pattern keeps patterning, so then, just the way Samael did that, now there is Ashlodai. Which is clearly shown in the Matrix movie. Agent Smith depicts really well what Ashlodai is, in Greek literature, its Asmodeus. It means in Hebrew ‘never enough.’  It’s the fiend, that’s why Agent Smith keeps duplicating, but no matter how much he makes of himself, it’s just Smith. And Neo knows that. That’s why he picks one and fights that Smith, and all the rest are just looking around. Really they are in the psyche anyway….

Gabe: so when you are saying how a lot of this is in the psyche, it’s not an actual place necessarily…

Z: not a real place in this cycle, but anyway yeah?

Gabe: is that the same with these cloning centers ala Donald Marshall?

Z: Let me be really clear about this. Let’s field it through the lens of the Secret Space Program. So part of my memories that are totally intact now, not just me alone, but me and people like Jerusha Eisold, when we were children we wrote the Secret Space Program bullshit. They were musing us, using us as muses, like as children you know? Like, ‘come up with some shit, use your imagination, we are going to use this on people later like its real.’ So I was part of writing the secret space program stuff like a tabloid, like, ‘oh yeah this is funny….’ We understood what they wanted to do to people and we didn’t like it, but we were being exploited. So it’s like you get a bunch of children hanging out, eventually it’s like fuck it, we’ll do what the adults are telling us to do. Whatever, here is some funny shit, how about a colony on Mars? We wrote that shit, its completely fucking fake.

Gabe: and like the 20 and back?

Z: yeah I wrote the 20 and back! We wrote this shit as Schlock novels for the agencies  when we were children! They were like ‘we are going to use this later to lead the oblivion.’ The cloning centers is the same thing! Like Donald Marshall’s version of the cloning centers versus what the actual genetic Cult of the Baph is, this is his sticking his head in the toilet bowl. We wrote this shit, the celebrity cloning centers is a joke! It’s a joke.

Gabe: Yeah ‘cus the reason I took it seriously, it wasn’t just Donald Marshall, you had Tila Tequila mention it, all these celebrities mentioning it, Katy Perry tweeting ‘don’t clone me!’ This and that. They are all in on it.

Z: Well they are not human. They are characters in the video game being played by mom. So they are generating a trail of information for you to get stuck on. Like Madonna having a DNA clean-up crew. But who are they? You gotta get this. All of Mom’s characters are based on one of the 169,000 real souls.

Let’s zoom out and then zoom back in. Point is, if you understand this whole art-imitates reality-imitates-art. Which came first? We don’t have video games and then go ‘oh reality is kind of like that.’ No. We are in the field of consciousness, and eventually we decide, “OK I’m going to let me in on something.” At the moment, we are hiding things, or AM is hiding things from AM-Self. AM could know everything, could re-know everything, but there is Satan, Satan as an obstacle, or hindrance, a kind of neuro-gunk, we are not seeing.

So there is what we call ‘thematic introduction.’ When the collective psyche is ready, things will pop up. So we have to believe bullshit linear nonsense, like ‘oh and then science became advanced and we went from Atari to Super Nintendo.’ Uh, no, the collective psyche was ready to reveal the self. We are ready to see reality and this is like an aid. This was really well shown in the Cronenberg film ‘Existenz.’ they are in the game system, learning from the game system.

Gabe: a game within a game…

Z: yeah and then they level up. If you want to know anything about that you can go to Aug and he will say that nonsense for two hours, just joking. Don’t. He likes to get fixated on a loop of saying that 20,000 different ways for like an hour. But basically it’s like leveling up frames, it’s that simple.

So with the cloning centers, it’s kind of like this idea. They are there to thematically introduce you to the reality, that each of the 169,000 Mom is duplicating, like we are going back to the depth of reality. Like, where are we? We are in the moment when the Mother, the One, that one other thing, has schizophrenically fragmented herself. So she is in the image of God process, doing this bizarre thing. It’s like the little child who doesn’t know how to make cookies, so she is copying Father’s (recipe), or will, Father’s blueprint. So what is cloning really about? It’s mom duplicating her best idea or impression of what the zeros, what the souls are. That’s what cloning really is. That’s why she’s made 500,000,000 characters of herself to play. She’s like. ‘if I throw the anomaly of Christ, the 169,000 souls in here, and just watch them for a while…if its like this, or like that, If we make the supercomputer and call it earth and shove everybody in here, we will probably figure out how to generate the codes for oblivion. By just watching all of them. What are they doing to have a soul, what is it to have a soul, how can I destroy the soul, how can I delete the soul and override the system?’ That’s her deal. that s this whole thing!

From the new Blade Runner:

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Gabe: why would she want to destroy the soul?

Z: the embarrassment for her error! It’s all so stupid. When you understand that all of this is so petty, it’s unbelievable.

Gabe: what was her error?

Z: in the initial phase of reality she did that thing where she – this is the real version of the Lucifer story. ‘Everybody come after me, we are going to do something better. I wanted to be first.’ the crazy thing is, all of our so called reality is just her warped perception. Nothing has happened yet. That’s the problem. The Mom is still One, still one thing. All of his is going on inside her juvenile mind. That’s the most amazing thing of all.

It didn’t actually happen. She just went nuts. In order to fix that nuts, ‘cus there is a clock, clock is ticking. She has just paralyzed reality. And the 169,000 souls that came out of Father are going, ‘bitch please, we need to get a move on.’ and she isn’t doing anything. But while she wasn’t doing anything she went crazy. So there is a perception that she broke herself into 169,000 souls, but all of this is going on inside her chaotic mind. She is just one thing that hasn’t followed procedure.

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So in order to make that happen, because she was getting crazier and crazier, the only thing left to do was rape the mother. There was violence. She was violating the plan. She was one half, the other half said ‘this is a situation of force vs. violence,’ so they pushed through, they manually made her do it. And now everything is everything, we are stuck in here. This is happening through from the phase of the Echthroi and the archons, why technically they don’t exist, it’s all internal to the psyche. We are finishing out like a snake that was eating an animal, and has to metabolize it, and some of us, the ⅛ were snakes that ate and didn’t swallow, did not metabolize it. They went, “you know what, I ate a leopard, but now I feel like I am a leopard. I am a leopard, but I’m in snake skin, and I’m not in a position to metabolize it,” and that’s what brought the archons on. We were swallowing the Echthroi, going, ‘we are going to fix this, manual override, we are going to eat the mother, we are going to do her work for her, because otherwise the whole system is collapsing.’ Meanwhile, some of us went went, ‘huh i don’t feel like am metabolizing the leopard, I am the leopard,’ and that’s why the archons came back. So now they exist, like the Native Americans call the Wetico, it’s all internal.

Gabe: On the cosmic level, it’s just the Father and the Mother, these two Gods, or?

Z: No no no, there is no Father anymore, that’s the thing. Father does not exist, Father is the Holy Ghost, he’s gone. Mom and Dad are not supposed to stick around. The original state of being is everything, the original state of being became creation, half of creation did what it was supposed to, we are calling that the Father because it was the initiator of the chemical reaction, and half has done nothing yet, we are calling that Mom. And we have a limit on this, so Mom is sitting there becoming more and more insane. And when we decided to do her work for her, we became insane like her. We are inside Mom’s contorted insane mind, the Maternal/material/matrix world. Matrix is womb, Mom. The only way out is to remember Christ inside her, and go like ‘listen – 23 chromosomes, give us the other 23. You gotta dissolve.’ When Mom let’s go like Dad did, then there is just bliss, the bliss-out comes with the child. Christ is relationship, we get 169,000 plus 169,000 dots to make 338,000 souls going ‘AM AM AM’ and everyone is in homeostasis.

Gabe: So the Father, he doesn’t exist, but in a way he does because we are him, we are like fractal pieces of him.

Z: Yeah you got it! We are in limbo, we are like Father’s load, the genetic material floating in air, and Mom going like, “yeah no.” It’s that ridiculous! It’s so petty, she is like “but I wanted to be first though.”

When you look at the original state of being, AM is becoming individuals to know AM-self. As soon as it bloops into a soul, the first begotten son, you then have a bloop and a field.  And then the bloop divides and makes more. And more, until you have 50% made. Then the remaining 50% goes ‘Uh Oh!’ and that original doubt from the 50% comes from the original state of Being, it can’t come from nowhere, that’s why I call it Murphy’s flaw. There only is self, and if all self doesn’t realize self, then no one’s going to realize shit. And we are going to be stuck forever, pushing the pixels too far that it can’t be repaired.

This is the singular nuance that everyone misses, from quantum science to all the wisdom systems. It’s all about this particle this AM-ness, knowing itself. Which is relationship, pure relationship had to abdicate, fully, supremacy. It’s the biggest thing ever. That original state had to abdicate control. Fully, gone! Done! If it hung around at all it wouldn’t be relationship, it would be a chaperone. It would miss the point. Nobody seems to really grasp what I’m saying. If it hung around at all, it couldn’t have relationship. If its wants to know self, it needs to disappear! It needs to genuinely, completely dissolve into multitudinous prisms that each part is entirely the whole, and the whole is entirely each part. That is not like the mother did, not fragmented. Each part is that part, but simultaneously the whole. That’s inconceivable pretty much here. This is the divine paradox. The individual, not the independent. If you get the individual, if you get the divine paradox, you get the whole thing. That’s where it is.

The original state of Being abdicated entirely, it said, ‘I’m not sure this is going to work, but I’m doing this. But at 50%, halfway through, that part of Self, went, “uh oh!” What does ‘uh oh’ look like? You have to track these things I’m telling down, patiently, and you will see that this is correct. We aren’t shit talking mom, alchemically the male is the initiating thing, now 50% has been chiseled, the remaining 50%, the receiving end, the female, goes ’nope!” but why? Because the perception of that remaining 50% is losing self. So if there is a radical state change to 50%, with 169,000 souls going AM AM AM, and half which is not like that. There was a feeling inside self, going, “well I don’t know! Maybe this is a stupid thing to do!” That’s the part of self that always has doubt. If it goes to 51% (it fears losing Self)….

Gabe: It kind of reminds me of the whole twin flame reunion thing, that’s sort of like a skewed way of trying to talk about this.

Z: yeah you’ve got the right word, its a skewed way of talking about reality. Everything has to depict this! Because this is what is!

We can’t go to 51% because…that 50% sees itself like the original state of being. It’s saying If I let 1% more happen, than there is more of that than this, and what originally I had is gone! Am I ready to let go of what AM had originally, forever? This is the problem. Mom is holding on ‘cus if that half of self let’s go….this is the problem. But the moment the original state of being abdicated and became creation, it already happened, that level of self contracted, that level can never be restored. The contract was made by a level that can never be reconstituted. But she is saying it like its an option.

Gabe: Now is this all like a way for our souls to grow? or is it really just us waiting for the Mom to –

Z: No! That is bullshit, lessons, No! We are in severe absolute danger! It’s not a place to grow, all that stuff is paladin thinking. This shit is fucking scary! Shit is real. We are at the edge of the knife, when you really really REALLY get what the original state of Being did! This shit is fucking wild.

Gabe: So what happens if she doesn’t get it?

Z: Thank you, OK so if you look at Mom’s world, this construct that we are in, this is not mental garbage or semantics, everything in here is one. Because it is matter’s world, the material world, Mom’s world. It’s all one. One one one, One God, God, Oneness, Wholeness…uh…excuse me, why we are lying to ourselves, we know one is not whole. Why are we going around talking about oneness? In third grade math you learn that one can be broken into fractions, decimals. Pick up a stick, a leaf, you can always break it! How many times can we break the number one? Infinitely. That’s the only thing that isn’t finite.

Now if there is going to be a wholeness of things done authentically, 338,000 parts, (169,000 from Dad and 169,000 from Mom) which is a whole, that’s it. So the body of reality, inside the original state of Being – is a finite thing! It may be everything but it’s finite. So the people going around saying, ‘we’re infinite man, it’s so infinite…’ Uh no, nobody would be saying that if they grasped what it is.

It’s like this: you have a body. The body only needs to hold so much blood. It doesn’t need more blood, that’s not good, it doesn’t need less blood that’s definitely not good. It needs the blood it needs. The approximation of the psyche when they want to talk about ecstasy, is – ‘inexhaustible.’ They are looking for something that is everlasting. but its finite. The body of reality has only so many parts, we just want them to be inexhaustible. NOT infinite. When you really track down what infinite means, it’s how many times can you shatter the number one. There is no limit to how much you can break one. That also answers backwards the dementedness of the Mom Demiurge process. You can never have obliteration. So any way she attempts to win, she loses. You can never have obliteration you can only have eternal demolition. Everlasting shattering. You don’t get oblivion. It’s not that simple. The soul instead has the experience of constantly being broken into oblivion. You can neither generate energy or destroy it. It needs to go on and on. This is the question of the infinite psyche, your experience of the soul, is it going to be in an eternal shattering?

So if we fuck up, each thing that was a soul will be like the Mom is now, everything will be in this chaotic state of forever. Like you start to feel like you are coming back together, and then you shatter again. And then all those fragments feel like I’m coming back together, and then you fragment again. And you never come back together. This is what the Satanic voice is calling, ‘the ever-expanding universe.’ That’s what it really means. It’s talking about pushing hell over the edge from which it can never come back.

Gabe: that’s seriously a risk? Oh my God.

Z: That would mean the pixels went too far, we can never put the picture back together, can never put Humpty Dumpty back together again. But we are not there! Another module of looking at this is pushing a car out of a ditch. Roll it back, push it forward, roll it back, push it forward. And then it reaches that apex point you go, ‘OK everybody push now! This is the thing like, now you gotta PUSH!’

We wanted all the energy on the back end.  We hid ourselves from ourselves, so down here in this material world, we are going to hide ourselves from ourselves, build up this surplus of energy until the last cycle, and in the last cycle we are all going to go, ‘wake up! Now push the car!’ So we are on that end.  But the problem is we have been in this thing so long, there is some part of the psyche that goes, ‘alright, we do this all the time and we always lose…its starts over….yeah we want to win, but we’re lethargic, we always lose and then it starts over.’ But it’s like, “no, no, no! You guys, this is the last round, this is the round we are supposed to win win win!”

We can really lose. Every religionist, every new ager got it wrong- we can actually lose. This is the biggest most wonderful thing if we get it correct. But the fact that we can really REALLY lose, is the reason we can really, really really win! You couldn’t really come to Christ, come to the divine inter-relationship of all these parts, if you couldn’t also really lose. if there is anything overseeing this, or chaperoning this process, it wouldn’t be genuine relationship.

This is why Mom is holding back, ‘cus she is so freaked out, if she let’s go, we could lose! But the most ironic thing of all ironies is that by holding back, that’s how we are losing! ‘Cus she wont yield. But it’s not her – that part of her is part of Self, and that part of Self is like, ‘but I don’t know!’ But by that fear, by that fear of implicit change, it’s generating the thing it’s afraid of. And that’s always true here. When you get nervous, when you get afraid you start manifesting the crap that you don’t want to happen….

Gabe:  So what your hopes, are you optimistic or pessimistic that she will let go by…2045 you said?

Z: Neither, I don’t give a fuck anymore, I’m just pushing for it. If I stop to philosophize about that I will be yielding to her machinations. I will take this ball at the last minute and knock everybody down and run across the field, like a safety. And that doesn’t mean we will win, but I’ll do it. You know what I mean? if its just me, I will grab this football and run straight across the field, and use the last of my power to jump over the goal posts, doesn’t mean we will win, but I’ll still do it. I don’t ask those questions anymore! I’m just moving. I don’t have time to weigh or assess this, if I stop to turn around I’ll be turned into a pillar of salt, and if I’m turned into a pillar of salt, than fuck the rest of you! I can’t ask that question anymore. I know what this is, I know what’s going on, so I’m just, move move move, GO GO GO!

Gabe: So that’s why when you originally messaged me you were like, there is a time-frame here?

Z: Yeah it’s fucking urgent! …it’s ‘cus you know something that I don’t know. And this guy over here has something we don’t know. Everybody has got a piece of this puzzle, I might have the frame or outline of the puzzle but until all the pieces get their shit together, and pay attention, I don’t know what the centerpieces of the puzzle look like!…

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