From my novel, Aeon of the Twins, a work in progress.
And I’m only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see…
…Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Chain Link Park, lyrics ghost-written by Cassie Enderton, music by Caleb Enderton
I’m Slim Shady, yes I’m the real Shady.
All you other Slim Shady’s are just imitating
M&M, lyrics ghost-written by Cassie Enderton
Serhan sat in the stands of the dirt arena, among the murderers and rapists and thugs, among the sold-out politicians and Hollywood actors and directors and musical artists who signed a deal with a devil for power and fame, many of whom probably hadn’t read the fine print in the contract or hadn’t cared, hadn’t thought it through, too hungry were they in the moment. Serhan as a banker was meticulous and had read the fine print but hadn’t really understood it: that “half his life belonged to the Cult,” the Followers of the Apocalypse, the devil’s cult. He thought it meant some time out in the future, after he had become a very rich man, he would have to do what they asked. But it turned out that “half their life” meant the sleeping half of their life, and was to go into effect immediately. It meant that instead of normal dreams, they would join the collective dream of the psychopaths, they would be chipped and sent to the Trench, the Jungle, the Playground, the Pit, there were many code names for it. The secret facility where unspeakable things happened, in shady back rooms behind closed doors, in torture and sex dungeons on the lower floors, in experimental labs where biologic splices and other genetic horrors were produced, but most of all perhaps, here in the Dirt Arena, where the higher ups in the Order gathered everyone to watch in their Hunger Games, their sport, their gladiator matches, their torture spectacles.
In a dream one could be murdered, and then brought back, and murdered again. There was no end to the possibilities here.
Serhan had no taste for it, but on the occasions that he was chipped in, which thankfully wasn’t often anymore, he, like many others, pretended to enjoy it so as to slip by unnoticed by the inner circle. If someone expressed distaste for their games, they might end up in the pit themselves, on the receiving end of things. And so the ones like Serhan who regretted signing on with FOTA, sat and watched and smiled or clapped when appropriate and mostly just shut the hell up. Yes, FOTA had made Serhan a very rich man, got him the CEO position at one of the biggest banking conglomerates back in his thirties when he had been a very ambitious man. But then the other shoe fell and he was forced to do unspeakable things to competitors who saw the corruption and attempted to whistle-blow. He had killed, or sanctioned killing, and then hushed things up. He had embezzled, stole, moved money around illegally, and had been good at it. He had never been caught. But eventually it had caught up to him in a way he hadn’t prepared for. His wife, who he had taken for granted, cheated on, neglected for weeks at a time while he went on fancy business trips, had committed suicide. His son became a drug addict and couch potato, devoid of ambition beyond getting high and womanizing. These events had taken the air out of his sails, his ambition for power. Now he was just an old man with regrets who missed his wife and wondered when he would next have to bail his son out of jail. He no longer cared about the business, about power, but it was too late. The contract had no outs. It was for life. And so were the dreams.
And now, the Cassie girl and her twin were on the receiving end of the Queen’s stick. Her new playthings. Last night he had to sit and watch them get stabbed by Lester Remington, the lead singer of Chain Link Park. It was a ritual and rule that any artist who wanted a song by the Muse Twins had to stab and torture them publicly in the dirt. Serhan had gleaned some of how the black magickal system worked. Lester absorbed the twin’s power through the stabbing, and then he would absorb, through the ether, the collective consciousness, the energy of the fans, as they reacted emotionally to the pop songs, and then Lester himself would, not publicly, but in one of the backrooms, be drained of his Loosh, his life force energy would be sucked dry by the heads of the Order. In this way, the populace unknowingly fed, through this complex funneling system, the vampires who ruled the world from out of sight.
Here came one of the higher-ups now, Radner. He approached Serhan with a wicked grin on his oily, pale face. If there was ever a vampire walking, it was him.
“Serhan, glad you could make it tonight, come, I’ve been saving a special seat for you upfront. You’re gonna like this one.” He motioned with his hand for Serhan to follow him. Serhan knew better than to do anything other than obey. Dread in the pit of his stomach, Serhan got up and moved through the aisle, trying not to step on anybody’s toes, then down the cement stairs to a lower section of seats usually reserved for those of higher degree in the order. There was a strict hierarchical system here that everyone eventually learned. Robed goons eyed him coolly as he sat down next to Radner, then turned their attention back to the pit, which was empty save for servants sweeping the dirt from whatever abuse had taken place earlier and setting up for the next show. There was a scent of anticipation in the air.
Serhan prayed it wouldn’t be the twins again. He had, rather surprisingly, grown quite fond of the girl over the years, as much as he had tried to keep a professional distance. The way she had handled herself with Osman had impressed and endeared her to him. It had shown a certain spunk that he respected. His own son lacked this spunk.
Radner interrupted his thoughts, “your’re doing a great job with the Enderton girl. She and the boy have quite exceeded our expectations so far. I do hope you still see the value in this work. The Great Work.”
“Yes, yes, of course sir.”
“No, you don’t see it, not yet anyway in it’s full grandeur. How could you? But you will, you will in good time. And then, with the Zeitgeists in our possession, we become the Lords of life and death, we will slip into the underworld where your wife lingers and bring her back into the land of the living.”
Serhan’s stomach fluttered. “But…how?” His voice was small.
Radner shrugged as if it were no big deal, looking down at the dirt arena. “A simple matter of summoning her soul into a clone body. We’ve already got her DNA on file. I’ll show you the cloning facility some time, you really have to see it for yourself. But look!” He pointed down, “here they come now! The stars of the show.”
There was a rumbling, shouting and applause from the stands as Queen Elizabeth appeared on the dirt floor, waving and grinning her crocodile teeth at them, and trailing behind her were the twins, hands and feet in manacles, shuffling along, heads bowed in dejection.
Oh Lord.
The three of them made their way to the middle of the pit.
The Queen cleared her throat and her amplified voice came through the speakers, “friends, good evening all.”
Shouts and whistles came in response, as well as “good evening Queen!” Serhan wondered how many were hamming it up, hoping for a promotion within the ranks.
“We love our new children don’t we?” She went in between the twins and put her arms around both their shoulders.
More shouts and applause.
“Yes, we couldn’t be more pleased. Audiohead’s album Kid A is performing on top of the charts for several weeks now, and they have already made songs for both Systems Down and Chain Link Park that seem very promising.”
Another raucous round of noise.
“Not since The Beatles have we had such a Muse within our ranks, I think. But, I’m afraid, not everyone agrees, not everyone is on board with what these two children have to offer.”
A silence fell on the room like an anvil.
What’s her angle this time? Serhan wondered. Radner turned to him and winked.
“Yes, it came to our attention that a certain performer expressed distaste at having to sing, or in this case, rap, something written by a girl.” The queen squeezed Cassie’s cheek like an old grandma, and Cassie shut her eyes hard, like she was working hard to dissociate from what was happening. Serhan couldn’t blame her.
“I would like to invite to the arena, Marshall Matthews, who goes by the stage name M&M!”
A spotlight shone down on the one spoken about. He was sitting up and to the left of Serhan, a white guy with tattoos and bleached blonde hair in a buzzcut, dressed like a gangster. His perpetually angry face now appeared in the big screen TV.
“Will M&M please stand up?”
At first he didn’t move, his neighbors not daring to make eye contact, but when guards approached him from the rows behind, he slowly got up from his seat, and made his way down the steps. The room was quiet, all eyes on him.
“Come, come.” The queen boomed through her speaker, as his feet hit the dirt. She motioned him over. His eyes were wide and sweat was starting to bloom on his face. Serhan didn’t know the guy and didn’t listen to that kind of music but he felt sorry for him. Whatever he did, he would be punished far beyond what he deserved. Serhan glanced at the twins; they were also wide-eyed, staring at the rapper, frozen in anticipation.
When Matthews joined their circle, the queen boomed, “well? What have you to say for yourself? Do you deny expressing such distaste for being next in line for being a vehicle for the twin’s music?”
To Serhan he sounded like a white guy trying to sound black, “Man, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I’ll rap their shit, whatever.”
“Lies! Play the tape!”
A scene appeared on the big screen, it looked like security footage from a camera mounted on high, looking down on a music studio. At a table in front of sound mixing gear sat Matthews, or M&M, and a black dude, another rapper Serhan thought he had seen around. Osman would know who it was.
A techie came into the room with a clipboard and addressed them,
“I have a memo from the Queen. Your next album is to be written by the Zeitgeist Twins. Cassie, specifically, is going to write your lyrics. Your character as the angry white male saying ‘fuck you’ to the establishment needs a makeover.”
“Why? I can write my own shit just fine. Damn. I ain’t rapping some white girl’s shit.” Matthews replied, slamming his fist on the table.
The techie’s eyes flickered nervously to the camera and the scene cut to black.
Radner whispered to Serhan, “she’s going to make an example of him. It’s not about gender equality, or some such thing, it’s about showing all the performers that we’re always watching, listening. And that the twin’s music will not be questioned.”
“Well?” The queen accused. “Tell it to Cassie’s face. Come. Tell her right up close that you refuse to perform what she provides.” The queen’s face was turning beat red, and yet she was clearly enjoying herself. Matthews on the other hand, had gone pale. He was frozen to the spot.
The queen, in two quick steps strode over and slapped him across the face. “Tell her!”
The rapper, now jostled into action said, “OK, I’m sorry! I’ll perform her music! There, damn!”
“What? Oh you’ve changed your mind? Say it louder through the speaker.” She handed him a little clip-on mic.
His voice, raised in pitch, boomed, “I’ll perform her music. Rap her lyrics just the way she does it.”
“Oh? But she is a girl. Can girls rap too, Marshall?”
“Yeah girls can rap.”
“Can white girls rap?”
“Yeah white girls can rap.”
“Cassie,” the queen turned on a dime to the twins, and in a sugary sweet grandma voice said, “my dear, I think our friend here has seen the error of his thought, but let’s really make sure the lesson sticks.”
A guard brought her a wicked looking samurai sword, and unchained Cassie’s hands and feet.
“Would you be a dear and take the sword from the nice man.”
It was not a question.
The silent amphitheater froze in a snapshot, everyone wondering what Cassie would do. Matthews looked like he was hoping to disappear into thin air.
“Uh, I forgive him. Marshall, that is,” Cassie started to babble. “He seems to be genuinely sorry, and uh, it could be the case that the sword isn’t necessarily -”
In one quick movement the queen took an electric prod from the guards waste and zapped it into Cassie’s side.
Cassie squealed, collapsing to her knees.
“Your opinion is irrelevant!” The queen screamed. She grabbed Cassie by the hair and pulled her to her feet. “Now pull yourself together, take the sword and gut this man who dared insult you!”
She let go of her hair and Cassie tottered like a drunk before finding her bearings. On her face came a look of black hatred. She shouted back at the queen, “what makes you think you can do this to us?!”
There were quite a lot of stunned gasps from the crowd. Serhan drew in a sharp intake of air. He could barely watch.
For a moment the queen just stared at her blankly. Then, a smile crept over her face. She turned to the crowd, raising her arms, “I like the stubbornness of this girl,” then addressing Cassie again, “good, I’m beginning to see how you’ve gotten this far. However, Matthews stepped out of line and must be punished. If you don’t do it, he will still be punished, and you will receive the same punishment. You AND your dear brother.” She whispered something further into Cassie’s ear. Serhan wondered what sick threat it was.
Grim defeat seeped into Cassie’s face. Serhan heard Radner chuckle quietly.
Cassie took the sword, eyes downcast and stepped slowly forward. Matthews whispered, “please…don’t,” and then in a flash of silver, the sword disappeared into his stomach with a sickening squishing sound.
He grunted, the whites of his eyes flashing brilliantly. Cassie’s sweaty hair covered her face, her arm holding the sword in place, Matthews sinking to his knees.
“Now slash his throat! End him!”
Serhan felt like he would puke. It’s just a dream. A sickening realish dream, but a dream nonetheless. He is not actually dying.
He wished he could tell her this. She would have to piece it together on her own. If she didn’t, she might go mad, she might choose to go out like his wife.
No, she’s a fighter. She wouldn’t do that.
Cassie pulled the sword out of his stomach, his blood splattering the dirt, her arm, her clothes.
Matthews was drooping, losing consciousness. Queen Elizabeth grabbed his head and pulled up, exposing his neck.
“Now!”
Cassie screamed, and swung the sword like a baseball bat across his neck, blood blooming out.
Matthews toppled over and died in the dirt. Well his Trench avatar died, anyway.
Cassie fell to her knees and vomited.
The queen looked quite pleased with herself. “There’s a good girl,” she said.
***
“Cowards only come through
when the hour’s late
and everyone’s asleep, mind you“
21 Pilots, to a song from the album ‘Trench’