Novel Excerpt: Chapter 5 – Muse

From my novel, Aeon of the Twins, a work in progress.

And I’m only a crack

In this castle of glass

Hardly anything there for you to see…

…Bring me home in a blinding dream

Through the secrets that I have seen

Chain Link Park, lyrics ghost-written by Cassie Enderton, music by Caleb Enderton

I’m Slim Shady, yes I’m the real Shady.

All you other Slim Shady’s are just imitating

M&M, lyrics ghost-written by Cassie Enderton

Serhan sat in the stands of the dirt arena, among the murderers and rapists and thugs, among the sold-out politicians and Hollywood actors and directors and musical artists who signed a deal with a devil for power and fame, many of whom probably hadn’t read the fine print in the contract or hadn’t cared, hadn’t thought it through, too hungry were they in the moment. Serhan as a banker was meticulous and had read the fine print but hadn’t really understood it: that “half his life belonged to the Cult,” the Followers of the Apocalypse, the devil’s cult. He thought it meant some time out in the future, after he had become a very rich man, he would have to do what they asked. But it turned out that “half their life” meant the  sleeping half of their life, and was to go into effect immediately.  It meant that instead of normal dreams, they would join the collective dream of the psychopaths, they would be chipped and sent to the Trench, the Jungle, the Playground, the Pit, there were many code names for it. The secret facility where unspeakable things happened, in shady back rooms behind closed doors, in torture and sex dungeons on the lower floors, in experimental labs where biologic splices and other genetic horrors were produced, but most of all perhaps, here in the Dirt Arena, where the higher ups in the Order gathered everyone to watch in their Hunger Games, their sport, their gladiator matches, their torture spectacles. 

In a dream one could be murdered, and then brought back, and murdered again. There was no end to the possibilities here.

Serhan had no taste for it, but on the occasions that he was chipped in, which thankfully wasn’t often anymore, he, like many others, pretended to enjoy it so as to slip by unnoticed by the inner circle. If someone expressed distaste for their games, they might end up in the pit themselves, on the receiving end of things. And so the ones like Serhan who regretted signing on with FOTA, sat and watched and smiled or clapped when appropriate and mostly just shut the hell up. Yes, FOTA had made Serhan a very rich man, got him the CEO position at one of the biggest banking conglomerates back in his thirties when he had been a very ambitious man. But then the other shoe fell and he was forced to do unspeakable things to competitors who saw the corruption and attempted to whistle-blow. He had killed, or sanctioned killing, and then hushed things up. He had embezzled, stole, moved money around illegally, and had been good at it. He had never been caught. But eventually it had caught up to him in a way he hadn’t prepared for. His wife, who he had taken for granted, cheated on, neglected for weeks at a time while he went on fancy business trips, had committed suicide. His son became a drug addict and couch potato, devoid of ambition beyond getting high and womanizing. These events had taken the air out of his sails, his ambition for power. Now he was just an old man with regrets who missed his wife and wondered when he would next have to bail his son out of jail. He no longer cared about the business, about power, but it was too late. The contract had no outs. It was for life. And so were the dreams. 

And now, the Cassie girl and her twin were on the receiving end of the Queen’s stick. Her new playthings. Last night he had to sit and watch them get stabbed by Lester Remington, the lead singer of Chain Link Park.  It was a ritual and rule that any artist who wanted a song by the Muse Twins had to stab and torture them publicly in the dirt. Serhan had gleaned some of how the black magickal system worked. Lester absorbed the twin’s power through the stabbing, and then he would absorb, through the ether, the collective consciousness, the energy of the fans, as they reacted emotionally to the pop songs, and then Lester himself would, not publicly, but in one of the backrooms, be drained of his Loosh, his life force energy would be sucked dry by the heads of the Order. In this way, the populace unknowingly fed, through this complex funneling system, the vampires who ruled the world from out of sight. 

Here came one of the higher-ups now, Radner. He approached Serhan with a wicked grin on his oily, pale face. If there was ever a vampire walking, it was him.

“Serhan, glad you could make it tonight, come, I’ve been saving a special seat for you upfront. You’re gonna like this one.” He motioned with his hand for Serhan to follow him. Serhan knew better than to do anything other than obey. Dread in the pit of his stomach, Serhan got up and moved through the aisle, trying not to step on anybody’s toes, then down the cement stairs to a lower section of seats usually reserved for those of higher degree in the order. There was a strict hierarchical system here that everyone eventually learned. Robed goons eyed him coolly as he sat down next to Radner, then turned their attention back to the pit, which was empty save for servants sweeping the dirt from whatever abuse had taken place earlier and setting up for the next show.  There was a scent of anticipation in the air. 

Serhan prayed it wouldn’t be the twins again. He had, rather surprisingly, grown quite fond of the girl over the years, as much as he had tried to keep a professional distance. The way she had handled herself with Osman had impressed and endeared her to him. It had shown a certain spunk that he respected. His own son lacked this spunk.

Radner interrupted his thoughts, “your’re doing a great job with the Enderton girl. She and the boy have quite exceeded our expectations so far. I do hope you still see the value in this work. The Great Work.”

“Yes, yes, of course sir.”

“No, you don’t see it, not yet anyway in it’s full grandeur. How could you? But you will, you will in good time. And then, with the Zeitgeists in our possession, we become the Lords of life and death, we will slip into the underworld where your wife lingers and bring her back into the land of the living.”

Serhan’s stomach fluttered. “But…how?” His voice was small.

Radner shrugged as if it were no big deal, looking down at the dirt arena. “A simple matter of summoning her soul into a clone body. We’ve already got her DNA on file. I’ll show you the cloning facility some time, you really have to see it for yourself. But look!” He pointed down, “here they come now! The stars of the show.” 

There was a rumbling, shouting and applause from the stands as Queen Elizabeth appeared on the dirt floor, waving and grinning her crocodile teeth at them, and trailing behind her were the twins, hands and feet in manacles, shuffling along, heads bowed in dejection.

Oh Lord.

The three of them made their way to the middle of the pit. 

The Queen cleared her throat and her amplified voice came through the speakers, “friends, good evening all.”

Shouts and whistles came in response, as well as “good evening Queen!” Serhan wondered how many were hamming it up, hoping for a promotion within the ranks.

“We love our new children don’t we?” She went in between the twins and put her arms around both their shoulders. 

More shouts and applause.

“Yes, we couldn’t be more pleased. Audiohead’s album Kid A is performing on top of the charts for several weeks now, and they have already made songs for both Systems Down and Chain Link Park that seem very promising.” 

Another raucous round of noise.

“Not since The Beatles have we had such a Muse within our ranks, I think. But, I’m afraid, not everyone agrees, not everyone is on board with what these two children have to offer.”

A silence fell on the room like an anvil. 

What’s her angle this time? Serhan wondered. Radner turned to him and winked. 

“Yes, it came to our attention that a certain performer expressed distaste at having to sing, or in this case, rap, something written by a girl.” The queen squeezed Cassie’s cheek like an old grandma, and Cassie shut her eyes hard, like she was working hard to dissociate from what was happening. Serhan couldn’t blame her. 

“I would like to invite to the arena, Marshall Matthews, who goes by the stage name M&M!”

A spotlight shone down on the one spoken about. He was sitting up and to the left of Serhan, a white guy with tattoos and bleached blonde hair in a buzzcut, dressed like a gangster. His perpetually angry  face now appeared in the big screen TV. 

“Will M&M please stand up?”

At first he didn’t move, his neighbors not daring to make eye contact, but when guards approached him from the rows behind, he slowly got up from his seat, and made his way down the steps. The room was quiet, all eyes on him. 

“Come, come.” The queen boomed through her speaker, as his feet hit the dirt. She motioned him over. His eyes were wide and sweat was starting to bloom on his face. Serhan didn’t know the guy and didn’t listen to that kind of music but he felt sorry for him. Whatever he did, he would be punished far beyond what he deserved. Serhan glanced at the twins; they were also wide-eyed, staring at the rapper, frozen in anticipation. 

When Matthews joined their circle, the queen boomed, “well? What have you to say for yourself? Do you deny expressing such distaste for being next in line for being a vehicle for the twin’s music?”

To Serhan he sounded like a white guy trying to sound black, “Man, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I’ll rap their shit, whatever.” 

“Lies! Play the tape!”

A scene appeared on the big screen, it looked like security footage from a camera mounted on high, looking down on a music studio. At a table in front of sound mixing gear sat Matthews, or M&M, and a black dude, another rapper Serhan thought he had seen around. Osman would know who it was. 

A techie came into the room with a clipboard and addressed them,

“I have a memo from the Queen. Your next album is to be written by the Zeitgeist Twins. Cassie, specifically, is going to write your lyrics. Your character as the angry white male saying ‘fuck you’ to the establishment needs a makeover.”

“Why? I can write my own shit just fine. Damn. I ain’t rapping some white girl’s shit.” Matthews replied, slamming his fist on the table. 

The techie’s eyes flickered nervously to the camera and the scene cut to black.

Radner whispered to Serhan, “she’s going to make an example of him. It’s not about gender equality, or some such thing, it’s about showing all the performers that we’re always watching, listening. And that the twin’s music will not be questioned.”

“Well?” The queen accused. “Tell it to Cassie’s face. Come. Tell her right up close that you refuse to perform what she provides.” The queen’s face was turning beat red, and yet she was clearly enjoying herself. Matthews on the other hand, had gone pale. He was frozen to the spot.

The queen, in two quick steps strode over and slapped him across the face. “Tell her!”

The rapper, now jostled into action said, “OK, I’m sorry! I’ll perform her music! There, damn!” 

“What? Oh you’ve changed your mind? Say it louder through the speaker.” She handed him a little clip-on mic.

His voice, raised in pitch, boomed, “I’ll perform her music. Rap her lyrics just the way she does it.”

“Oh? But she is a girl. Can girls rap too, Marshall?”

“Yeah girls can rap.”

“Can white girls rap?”

“Yeah white girls can rap.”

“Cassie,” the queen turned on a dime to the twins, and in a sugary sweet grandma voice said, “my dear, I think our friend here has seen the error of his thought, but let’s really make sure the lesson sticks.

A guard brought her a wicked looking samurai sword, and unchained Cassie’s hands and feet. 

“Would you be a dear and take the sword from the nice man.” 

It was not a question.

The silent amphitheater froze in a snapshot, everyone wondering what Cassie would do. Matthews looked like he was hoping to disappear into thin air. 

“Uh, I forgive him. Marshall, that is,” Cassie started to babble. “He seems to be genuinely sorry, and uh, it could be the case that the sword isn’t necessarily -”

In one quick movement the queen took an electric prod from the guards waste and zapped it into Cassie’s side.

Cassie squealed, collapsing to her knees.

Your opinion is irrelevant!”  The queen screamed. She grabbed Cassie by the hair and pulled her to her feet. “Now pull yourself together, take the sword and gut this man who dared insult you!”

She let go of her hair and Cassie tottered like a drunk before finding her bearings. On her face came a look of black hatred. She shouted back at the queen, “what makes you think you can do this to us?!”

There were quite a lot of stunned gasps from the crowd. Serhan drew in a sharp intake of air. He could barely watch.

For a moment the queen just stared at her blankly. Then, a smile crept over her face. She turned to the crowd, raising her arms, “I like the stubbornness of this girl,” then addressing Cassie again, “good, I’m beginning to see how you’ve gotten this far. However, Matthews stepped out of line and must be punished.  If you don’t do it, he will still be punished, and you will receive the same punishment. You AND your dear brother.” She whispered something further into Cassie’s ear. Serhan wondered what sick threat it was.

Grim defeat seeped into Cassie’s face. Serhan heard Radner chuckle quietly.

Cassie took the sword, eyes downcast and stepped slowly forward. Matthews whispered, “please…don’t,” and then in a flash of silver, the sword disappeared into his stomach with a sickening squishing sound. 

He grunted, the whites of his eyes flashing brilliantly. Cassie’s sweaty hair covered her face, her arm holding the sword in place, Matthews sinking to his knees. 

“Now slash his throat! End him!”

Serhan felt like he would puke. It’s just a dream. A sickening realish dream, but a dream nonetheless. He is not actually dying. 

He wished he could tell her this. She would have to piece it together on her own. If she didn’t, she might go mad, she might choose to go out like his wife. 

No, she’s a fighter. She wouldn’t do that.

 Cassie pulled the sword out of his stomach, his blood splattering the dirt, her arm, her clothes.

Matthews was drooping, losing consciousness. Queen Elizabeth grabbed his head and pulled up, exposing his neck.

“Now!”

Cassie screamed, and swung the sword like a baseball bat across his neck, blood blooming out.

Matthews toppled over and died in the dirt. Well his Trench avatar died, anyway.

Cassie fell to her knees and vomited.

The queen looked quite pleased with herself. “There’s a good girl,” she said.

***

“Cowards only come through

when the hour’s late

and everyone’s asleep, mind you

21 Pilots, to a song from the album ‘Trench’

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Backwards Letter E, Eden, 33, Imagine Dragons

Muse

I haven’t been too active on this blog in a while; my creative efforts have been going towards my novel, Aeon Of The Twins (still a work-in-progress). The novel explores the idea, in fictional form, that most, if not all the popular music, film and TV is written by gifted ‘slaves’ behind the scenes, the material then given to the performers who plagiarize and take all the credit, performers like Imagine Dragons, who I will explore in this post. 

If you analyze much of the song lyrics and film symbolism from this lens, all the little easter eggs and riddles become a cry for help by these ghost-writers, putting their story out in code; then a whole new reality unfolds for you, an efflorescence shines out from the darkness. This was a great awakening for me.

Donald Marshall a so-called ‘whistleblower’ was the person who first tuned me into this secret. However I later came to doubt his authenticity as one of the ghost-writers. He claims to have written thousands of songs, and does share many codes and secrets in the lyrics, but when I read his character, his vibe, there was a mismatch there between what he claims to be, and the way he acts. Plus, I do not think any of the ghost writers would be able to get away with disclosing as much as he did.

Believer

The Imagine Dragons music video ‘Believer’ features the lead singer boxing with a famous boxer from the Rocky films. The theme is pain; the constant pummeling of fists and spilling of blood as the two fighters go at it matches the beat of the drums and the lyrics as he sings, “pain, you make a believer…”

At one point the boxers stop, and one says to the other, “I want to stop,” in between heavy breathing. The other boxer replies, “We can’t.” This odd little interlude in the song makes much more sense from the lens I presented to you, it’s the sentiment of the Illuminati slaves, the ghost writers. They want to stop, but they can’t, they’re not allowed. Even many of the performers and actors themselves are probably stuck in the club; black-mailed to continue, and to keep silent. Once you sign the blood oath, the contract with these dark brotherhoods, you are in for life.

What inspired this post was noticing the backwards letter E tattooed on his chest, which apparently is the logo for their album “Evolve”

Two E’s that appear together in a logo are backwards 3’s for a hidden Code 33. But there is more here, which takes us to the bible, which the dark brotherhoods like to riff off due to its potency in spell-casting.

I refer you back to an old post called East of Eden, where we looked at the backwards letter E closely. There are multiple meanings here, but one is E as East.  

Kicked From The Garden

screenshot from a Bickford video, now taken down from YT

So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.” – Genesis 3:24

Eve took a bite out of the forbidden Apple. The bite (byte) is on the east side. East of Eden (Gen 3.24) is where the gate in and out of Paradise is guarded. The Luciferians want to storm the gate by force, subverting God’s plan. They are also worshipping the dark and perverted form of Eve, Lilith, Adam’s so-called first bride.

“The flaming sword of the Cherubim’s which turned every way….” the bible says. We see on countless logos and film titles the letter E being turned, flipped, or slashed (missing the vertical crossbar):

In Eminem’s name we see a double 33, because M and M are two sideways threes.

And notice the FedEx arrow embedded in the E points East.

Notice too the hexagon. Reawaken inside the beehive (Saturn cube, with Lilith as the queen bee, everyone else as worker drone).

In the logo above we see the E’s are framed by the turning wheel.

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This album cover is an image of the false rapture (sucked into Saturn’s cube, see The Lilith Code). The false Eden, through the eastern gate, storming the Castle Rock by force.

The E is strategically placed in the reflection of the lighthouse upon the face of the waters. The lighthouse symbolizes here the false light of Lucifer, blocking out the true sunlight behind it, the sunlight of Christ, the sun spirit.

The album cover reminds me of the scene from the Ariana Grande music video “God is A Woman”

The false light rapture into Ariana Grande’s vagina (Lilith’s black cube). 

Throughout the video there is a mysterious boy sketching something in his journal. He represents the slave ghost-writers (many may be children). We don’t see what he is sketching until the very end (minute 3:31) – 

The boy is sitting in the same chair that the singer sits in, it alternates between the two of them, showing the intimate connection between ghost writer and performer. The two are in a sense one. 

The lyrics go – 

I was broken from a young age

Taking my sulking to the masses

Writing my poems for the few

That look at me, took to me, shook to me, feeling me

Singing from heartache from the pain

Taking my message from the veins

Speaking my lesson from the brain

Seeing the beauty through the…

Pain!

The ghost writer was broken from a young age. He writes poems for the few. The few, this is important. Most don’t see the symbols that are right in front of them. This is just like the 21 Pilots song ‘Message Man,’

Please use discretion

When you’re messing with the message man

These lyrics aren’t for everyone

Only few understand

The obligatory Horus one-eye shot. Bleeding and crying from the one eye. Or sometimes its black goo coming from the eye, as in Billie Eilish, another Lilith character:

“Even God herself has enemies,” Billie sings, referring to the dark Goddess Lilith. “When all is said and done, you’ll believe God is a woman,” sings Ariana.

“As the waters rise,” Billie sings – 

But back to Imagine Dragons:

Black cube symbolism. The two boxers fighting inside a holographic Saturn cube. 

At the beginning of the video the characters themselves are built from holographic material; their souls having been uploaded into the cube, Lilith and Ahriman’s dystopian Hell-scape.

Another album cover:

Falling or “ascending to heaven?”

Tangent – What’s In A Name?

The hologram theme plays into the name of the band, Imagine Dragons. To imagine is to create something in your mind that is not real, like a hologram. And a dragon, like the dinosaurs, were giant serpentine monsters in the Lemurian period of Earth evolution that were the embodiment of imbalanced and unchecked animal passions. They were the incarnations of  Luciferic beings, but they were allowed to exist as a lesson to humanity about what can happen if the animal propensities are not overcome. They were less dense than today, although more dense that a hologram (imagination), but the connection is there. Every ancient culture has a foggy memory of this recorded in their dragon myths, and our bible of course is no different, with the devil, that great serpent.  Modern science has taken this reality about the reptilian monsters of Lemuria and turned them into a distortion that we call “dinosaurs.” They could not have been of the same density as today, the body weight would be impossible for them to walk around and function. Everything in Lemuria was more plastic, malleable, hence there were also giant humans, as recorded in the ancient records as well. 

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Esoteric Lessons II – Rudolf Steiner

Steiner like all great adepts throughout time was vegetarian, and mentions briefly here the effects of meat eating, as well as other great tidbits for attaining a more spiritual life.

GA 266

Lesson 56

Köln, 5-9-’12

We get an increase in spiritual knowledge and forces through hard work at esoteric exercises such as the ones described in How Does One Attain Knowledge of Higher Worlds? and in other books. But we must heed certain practical hints that help us to get ahead.

A healthy condition of tiredness doesn’t have to prevent us from carrying out concentration and mediation with great willpower. On the contrary. Nature does one part of the work for us, since it dulls the outer sense organs and lessens our ability to take in sense impressions. For the goal is to see without physical eyes, to hear without physical ears and to think without a physical brain. It’s precisely when we are tired that we can illumine and warm our being with the luminous thoughts of meditation.

Abstention from alcohol is necessary, for this works on the ego that lives and works in the blood. Meditation pulls the spirit up and loosens its connection with the physical body; alcohol pulls it down and consolidates it in the same. Eating meat makes the spirit heavy. Eating plants makes greater demands on the physical body so that it’s busy and can’t hinder the spirit’s work. But what else is brought about by abstention of fish and meat? The bad about eating meat is the lasting effect of hurting and killing animals. These martyred animals return in the form of creatures who turn their forces against the bodies of the descendents of those who once killed them. Bacteria are re-embodied tortured, killed and eaten animals.

Exercises bring about changes in an esoteric that he must pay attention to if he is to avoid injuries. Firstly, the intellect changes; the guidance of thought becomes different and so does judgment and memory. It becomes difficult for an esoteric to give logical and readily understandable reasons for his actions to an ordinary man. Such grounds aren’t at all necessary, for at the decisive moment a real esoteric knows the right thing to do. But if he doesn’t pull himself together and lazily avoids doing thought-control exercises, his thoughts may get confused.

Some immature people force their esoteric development and gain a certain power over others; but at the decisive moment they’re stopped before they can do greater damage.

Secondly the way one speaks and makes gestures changes. A man must have himself under control so that his nervous system doesn’t take over and he does all kinds of impermissible things.

Thirdly the physical body must not become injured by a forced, greedy tempo in esoteric development, otherwise an acute disease may set in, which however is curable and that warns the one who get it.

In the Hebrew mysteries, they spoke of four men who tried to go through the temple’s portal — but only one got to it. Only one developed normally through particularly patient and consequent methods and reached the goal. The others who forced their esoteric development were harmed. This shows how necessary a rigorous execution of the accessory exercises is for the harmonizing and consolidating effect on man’s whole being.

There are many powerful meditation materials, especially in the Bible. For instance, there’s a description of creation’s six days, the words at the beginning of John’s Gospel, the appearance of Yahweh to Moses in the burning bush, the Gospel stories, “I am the light of the world,” and a particularly effective meditation is 1 Timothy 3:16 in the following translation: The mystery of God’s path can be known. He who revealed himself through flesh, although in itself his being is spiritual, who is only fully knowable by angels, but could nevertheless be preached to heathens, who is alive in the faith of the world; he is raised to the Wisdom Spirits’ sphere.

What bodhisattvas could give to men was inspired by Spirits of Movement. The lowest things that radiated from the Christ came from the sphere of the hierarchy of the Spirits of Movement. The Christ is above all hierarchies — he belongs to the Trinity.

Source:

https://rsarchive.org/Lectures/19120509e01.html

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Reconciling Judaism and Christianity – Edouard Schure

Edouard Schure (1841-1929) was a French philosopher, poet, playwright, novelist, music critic, and publicist of esoteric literature. He is perhaps best known for his book The Great Initiates, A Sketch of the Secret History of Religions, which I will be quoting from. In this work he traces the hidden connecting threads tying the major religions and their prophets/founders together, from Rama to Krishna, to Hermes, Moses, Orpheus, Pythagoras, Plato and finally to Jesus who would unify them all in the last and everlasting religion, Christianity.

If the reader is triggered or has hangups by that last sentiment, it is because they are still associating Christianity with its degraded, popularized form, mainstream Churchianity, which watered down and misunderstood many of the great mysteries around the Christ and his teachings that are restored when one goes to its esoteric roots from authors like Schure and especially Rudolf Steiner, who I’ve written on and spoken about fairly extensively on this blog and on my Youtube channel.

So putting caveats aside, let us go to Schure’s section on Moses, the founder of Judaism, and father of monotheism in general, and take a closer look at the cosmic impulses that Moses was following which would, through Judaism, affect the evolution of humanity as a whole, and pave the way for Christ.

The Male Principle

Schure gives us this picture of Moses’ death in a cave at Mt. Nebo, with his closest disciple Joshua, at the end of a long difficult life trying to build a people centered around monotheism, at a time when polytheistic, nature-based cults were the norm. (Not that there was anything wrong with these cults, its just that they were from an impulse of the past and no longer suited for modern man if he was to develop further.)

Schure writes, “Yes, all great men well know the solitude created by their very greatness; but Moses was more isolated than the rest, because his principle was more absolute, more transcendental. His God was the male principle par excellence, pure Spirit. To inculcate this principle in mankind he was obliged to declare war on the feminine principle, on the goddess Nature, Heve, the eternal Woman, who enters the soul of Earth and the heart of Man. He was to combat it without truce or mercy, not to destroy, but to subject and tame it. What wonder that Nature and Woman, between whom reigns a mysterious pact, trembled before him! What wonder they rejoiced at his departure ; waiting, before they could raise their head once more, till the shadow of Moses had ceased to cast over them the presentiment of death!

Such were doubtless the thoughts of the Seer as he ascended Nebo’s barren sides. Men could not love him, for he had loved none but God. But would his work, at any rate, live ? Would his people remain faithful to their mission ? Alas! Fatal is the clairvoyance of the dying, tragic the prophetic gift, tearing away every veil when the final hour has come! In proportion as the spirit of Moses detached itself from earth, he saw the terrible reality of the future—the treasons of Israel, anarchy raising erect its head, royalty succeeding the Judges, the crimes of the Kings defiling the Temple of the Lord, his book mutilated and misunderstood, his thoughts travestied and disparaged by ignorant or hypocritical priests, _ the apostasies of kings, the adultery of Judah with idolatrous nations, the pure tradition and sacred doctrine defiled, and the prophets, guardians of the living word, persecuted and driven into the depths of the wilderness.

Seated in a cave cut into Mount Nebo, Moses saw all this within himself. The cold hand of Death was already laid at his heart, his dread wing was hovering above the Seer’s brow. Then once again the lion-hearted prophet roared out in anger against his people, summoning the vengeance of Elohim on the race of Judah. He raised his heavy arm. Joshua and the Levites present were struck with dismay as they heard these words leave the lips of the dying man: “The children of Israel have betrayed their God ; let them be scattered to the four winds of heaven !”

Joshua and the Levites looked in terror at their master, who no longer gave any sign of life. His last sentence had been a curse. Had he given up his last breath with it? No. Moses opened his eyes once again and said:

“And the Lord said unto me . . . I will raise them up a Prophet from among their brethren, like unto thee, and will put my words in his mouth; and he shall speak unto them all that I shall command him.

“And it shall come to pass that whosoever shall not hearken unto my words, which he shall speak in my name, I will require it of him” (Deuteronomy xviii. 17, 18, 19).

After these prophetic words Moses gave up the ghost. The solar Angel, with the flaming sword, who had first appeared to him on Sinai, was awaiting him. He carried him off into the all embracing arms of celestial Isis, into the waves of that light which is the Spouse of God. Far away from the regions of earth, they passed through circles of souls, of ever-increasing splendour and glory. Finally the Angel of the Lord showed him a spirit of wonderful beauty and celestial gentleness, but arrayed in so dazzling a light that his own radiance was nothing more than a shadow in comparison with it. He carried in his hand not the sword of punishment, but the palm of sacrifice and victory. Moses now saw that this glorious spirit would fulfill his work, and bring men back to the Father, by the might of the Eternal-Feminine, by Grace divine and perfect Love.

Then the Law-giver bowed down before the Redeemer, and Moses worshipped Jesus Christ.”

There is alot to unpack here, but most important to note is the how, in his dying throes, Moses had a vision of the Christ Spirit, who would take up and complete the work he started, only this time not through the male principle of severity but through the female principles of grace, mercy, forgiveness and love.

This answers the question that even a dabbler in religions will raise when comparing the Old and New Testaments – why such a different flavor between the two? The Old Testament God is so harsh and unforgiving, while the New Testament Father God, through his Son, brings the olive branch of peace. And how interesting then, that even though Christ is depicted as a male deity, and incarnates into a male body, nevertheless embodies the Eternal Feminine impulse, now resurrected from its pagan roots and updated with the sword of monotheism that was the mission of Moses through his god Yahweh Jehovah.

From Steiner we learn that Jehovah was one of the seven Elohim, divine Spirits of Form in the upper hierarchies. At a special point in time, in the ancient Hyperborean past, the Moon separated from the Earth, taking with it all those beings and forces that were too slow to develop with the pace of Earth. The Sun had already separated, taking with it the more highly developed angelic beings that needed a faster pace than Earth could provide. Of the seven Elohim, six went with the sun, while one, Jehovah, chose to stay with the moon, to become regent of the Moon, so that He could carry out His specific mission with the eventual people of Israel. The other six solar Elohim would essentially form the body of Christ on that particular level of being. From my understanding Christ is a being even higher than the Elohim in the hierarchies. He comes straight from the Ineffable Trinity at the very top, beyond human understanding, but manifests Himself in the hierarchies as the six solar Elohim, and through his messenger archangel Michael, his “day spirit,” and on the human level, in the body of Jesus of Nazareth for those three years from 30 to 33 years old. When Jesus bled out and died on the cross, the Christ went from being a solar Being to become wedded to the Earth, becoming the soul of the Earth until the end of this great cosmic Cycle or Kalpa.

Why was mention of the Eternal Feminine so absent from the Old Testament? Schure writes,

“I intend to offer in (my chapter on) Pythagoras a living picture of esoteric theogony and cosmogony in a form less abstract than that of Moses and more in harmony with modern mentality. Notwithstanding the polytheistic form and the extreme diversity of the symbols, the meaning of this Pythagorean cosmogony, according to Orphic initiation and the sanctuaries of Apollo, is, at bottom, identical with that of the prophet of Israel. In Pythagoras it is illumined, so to speak, by its natural complement: the doctrine of the soul and of its evolution. In the Greek sanctuaries it was taught under the symbols of the myth of Persephone, It was called the terrestrial and celestial story of Psyche. This story, corresponding to what Christianity calls the Redemption, is altogether absent from the Old Testament. Not that Moses and the prophets were ignorant of it, but they regarded it as being too lofty a doctrine to be taught to the masses, so it was reserved for the oral tradition of the initiates. The divine Psyche is to remain so long concealed beneath the Hermetic symbols of Israel, only to be personified in the ethereal and luminous coming of the Christ.

The cosmogony of Moses possesses the stern conciseness of the Semitic and the mathematical precision of the Egyptian genius. The style of the narrative calls to mind the figures found inside the tombs of the kings; in their dry, severe stiffness and rigid bareness they contain an impenetrable mystery.”

Now, important to note that Moses was not the first Hebrew, a diverse people stemming back to Abraham, who preceded Moses. Schure provides the context for when Moses, an Egyptian initiate, would take up his mission to organize and round up the diverse Semites and Hebrew people’s under one religion, which he would rule with an iron fist.

Schure writes, “Moses, an Egyptian initiate and priest of Osiris, was beyond all doubt the organiser of monotheism. Through him this principle, hitherto concealed beneath the triple veil of the mysteries, issued from the recesses of the temple and entered into the domain of history. Moses was bold enough to turn the loftiest principle of initiation into the sole dogma of a national religion, and yet so prudent that he revealed its consequences to none but a small number of initiates, imposing it on the masses by fear. In this the prophet of Sinai had evidently far-sighted views which looked beyond the destinies of his own people. The universal religion of mankind was the true mission of Israel, a mission few Jews, except their greatest Prophets, have understood. The accomplishment of this mission took for granted the absorption of the nation representing it. The Jewish people is scattered and destroyed, but the idea of Moses and of the Prophets has survived and grown. Developed and transfigured by Christianity, adopted by Islam, though on a lower mode, it had to impose itself on the barbarous West and react on Asia itself. Henceforth, however humanity may revolt and be harassed by internal strife, it will revolve round this central idea, like the nebula round the sun which organises it. Such was the formidable task assumed by Moses.

For this undertaking, the most colossal one there had ever been since the prehistoric exodus of the Aryans, Moses found an instrument ready at hand in the tribes of the Hebrews, especially in those which were settled in Egypt in the valley of Goshen, living there in slavery under the name of Beni-Jacob. For the establishment of a monotheistic religion he had also had forerunners in those peaceful nomadic kings mentioned in the Bible: Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.

Let us glance for a moment at these Hebrews and patriarchs. Afterwards we will give an outline of their great Prophet, with the desert mirages and the gloomy nights of Sinai as a background; the thunder of the legendary Jehovah making itself heard on every side.

These Ibrim, indefatigable nomads and eternal exiles, had been known for centuries, for thousands of years.‘ Brothers of the Arabs, the Hebrews, like all Semites, were the offspring of an ancient mixture of the white and black races. They had been seen passing to and fro in the north of Africa under the name of Bodones (Bedouins); without either shelter or bed, they would pitch their movable tents in the mighty deserts between the Red Sea and the Persian Gulf, the Euphrates and Palestine. These travellers, whether Ammonites, Elamites, or Edomites, all resembled one another. The ass or camel served them as vehicles, their tent as a house, whilst their sole property consisted of cattle wandering to and fro like themselves, ever browsing on the land of others, Like their ancestors, the Ghiborim, like the early Celts, these untamed tribes hated carved stones, fortified towns, stone temples, and drudgery. All the same, the monster cities of Babylon and Nineveh, with their gigantic palaces, their debauchery and mystery, exercised an invincible fascination over the semi-savages. Beguiled into these stone prisons, captured by the soldiers of the kings of Assyria and enlisted into their armies, they would at times plunge into all the orgies of Babylon. Then again the Israelites allowed themselves to be led astray by the women of Moab, who boldly seduced them with their ebony skins and flashing eyes. They led them away to worship idols of stone and wood, and even to offer sacrifice to cruel Moloch. Then suddenly they would make their escape, the desire for the wilderness again upon them.

On returning to the bleak lowlands, where nothing is to be heard but the roaring of wild beasts, to the wide-stretching desert sands, where the stars were their only guides, cowering before the cold light of those heavenly bodies which their ancestors had worshipped, feelings of shame came upon them. If a patriarch, an inspired Prophet, then spoke to them of the One God, of Elohim, of Sabaoth, the God of Hosts who sees everything and punishes the guilty, these grown-up children, wild and bloodthirsty, bowed their heads, knelt down in prayer, and allowed themselves to be led away like sheep.

By degrees this idea of the great Elohim, the one, all-powerful god, filled their soul…”

So we see how by the time Moses appeared on the scene, the time was ripe for a new religion, the old polytheistic or pagan cults, while initially stemming from divine sources, had become degraded into orgiastic, sensual idol-worship. This is the unbalanced feminine. Demon gods like Moloch and Astaroth had replaced many of the benefic gods, as could be seen in Babylon.

One of the commandments Moses brought was to never make graven images of God. The stark, cold and colorless male principle (pure Spirit) brings all the symbols and images inward, abstracted (see the numbers of letters of Kabbalah), while the nature-based feminine cults concretize or birth Spirit into matter through form: a colorful panorama of gods, statues, myths and images.

These early nature Goddess customs were taught to humanity by our angelic teachers in times when we were still clairvoyant, could still see higher beings walking amongst us. But this represents the child-like stage of humanity. To become adults we had to lose the clairvoyance, the angels had to withdraw from our sight, and we had to take all the customs and rituals inward, and merge them under the One God. The allegory had to give way to pure concept. Instinctive feeling had to give way to thinking. The nomadic Hebrews were the first to do this. They couldn’t take statues and religious paraphernalia with them across the desert, so they were ripe for this new impulse. Moses was just the first to unite the various tribes under one banner and organize them.

Once organized, the Israelites were to develop a bloodline devoid of the old clairvoyance for forty two generations, trained in the rigid rules of the male Jehovah cult, as charted in the Book of Matthew, in order to perfect a body or vehicle for the Christ to enter the human stream in the body of Jesus, descendant of Abraham. Jesus had to be of this line that was free of any of the old clairvoyance. Only then could the male and female principles be balanced and united under a single banner and given as the final religious impulse to all of humanity as the message and way of redemption.

Further Reading:

https://archive.org/details/greatinitiatessk0001schu/page/222/mode/2up

Last thoughts:

From my understanding of Schure, Moses knew well that the Jehovah God being he was in direct communion with was not the One God Almighty, but one of many Gods. In fact the One God Almighty only speaks through an array of intermediate beings, angelic and otherwise. Moses as trained in the Egyptian mystery schools would have known this. It was just that this Jehovah being was tasked to instruct Moses on how to lead the Jewish people in the way above described. This distinction always bothered me until at last it starts making sense!

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Novel Excerpt: Wanted And On The Run

Minha is a psychic supersoldier (she has TK: telekinesis). She trained as children along with the twins Rodger and Dodger at the Institute in chapter 3. Here she is as an adult in chapter 6, escaping from death row with a little help.

This is from my novel Aeon of the Twins, click the link to read or download (still a work in progress.)

Some inspiring “soundtrack” music:

I’m wanted and on the run

I’m wanted and on the run

So I’m taking this moment to live in the future

Please use discretion

When you’re messing with the message man

These lyrics aren’t for everyone

Only few understand

-21 Pilots

They came for her in the wee hours of the morning. It was Volkov, the nice one, and another named Barkov or something – she hadn’t seen him much. For her, they would have sent more than two guards, but with her wrists and ankles cuffed, they were feeling confident. She hadn’t slept a wink last night, but they came in quietly anyway, as though they didn’t want to startle her awake. 

“It’s time, Minha,” Volkov told her. He looked apologetic.

She shrugged off his extended hand and stands up – she wasn’t going to let someone else help her, although her knees were pretty weak. She had heard footsteps in the corridor throughout the night, wondering which ones were coming for her. Her nerves were raw, stunned from extended hyper focus, running on fumes.

Standing, her vision blurred, her head swimming. Damn it, Minha, hold it together, she told herself. Now’s the moment, split second decisions would determine life or death. 

And in all likelyhood, death. 

There’s no priest or pastor, not in a place like this, a prison for war criminals, the end of the road. No lavish last meal.

Just the last walk down the long, cold hall. More of a shuffle really, with the heavy-duty nylon restraints around her ankles. She noted Volkov’s key ring jangling at his belt. A few of the other inmates leaned forward in their cells; they recognized the sound of the last walk before dawn. They were curious about the young asian woman who apparently caused such an uproar. Rumor had it she assassinated the big name politician Marchenko at his private villa, and took out half his guards before finally being captured. 

So petite and skinny, her body didn’t match her reputation, except for her face: edgy and war-torn, the face of soldier, cold and hard, eyes like gray marbles that bored into your skull if you were on the receiving end of her stare. A phantom face that haunts your sleep. Yes, in her eyes they would believe the stories about her. Her hair was tangled, caked with dirt and grime. She reeked of old sweat and dried blood.

The place they took her wasn’t really a doctor’s office, it was a death chamber after all, but it had the look and smell of any prison surgery. She immediately scanned the room, training instincts kicking in: the camera in the corner, loose items on the counter that might become projectiles, estimating weights, distances.

 The doctor was a small man with thin round glasses and quick bird-like movements. He avoided eye contact with her, and had already donned a blue surgical mask. To the guards he pointed a trifle shyly to the stainless steel table, as if to try and skirt responsibility for what was about to take place. 

The two guards each took an arm, their grips very firm, and led her like a dog on a leash to the table. She didn’t fight it, now was not the moment. She allowed herself to be propped up on the paper covering. Volkov grabbed her dangling legs and lifted them up; he was trying to be helpful, in her last moments. Barkov pushed her chest down so that she was now lying on her back. Leather straps were pulled around her hands and legs, tightening them into place. This required uncuffing her, she noted with a shimmer of hope. From one restraint into another, but one that didn’t require a key.

They were underestimating her again.

The doctor had his back to her, working on something by the cabinet. She took the chance to close her eyes and practice a secret deep breathing technique that quickly builds chi. Her chi was still very weak from the poor prison food, lack of sleep, and abuse over the last week, as her captors were deciding what to do with her. 

This mission had gone on far too long. 

A shadow fell over the room; the corporate officer from the interrogation was standing in the doorway looking at her. Bald and heavy eyelids, strong Russian accent. A few days ago she had been brought to him and questioned, propositioned.

“Come work for us.”

“I work for nobody.”

“We know you work for FOTA, probably against your will. What do they have on you? What keeps you loyal?”

When she wouldn’t say, even after several beatings, they had brought in a telepath or TP. She tried to blank her mind but was not skilled in Screening. 

“They know the location of her younger brother.” The TP said after a few moments of scanning her mind. 

The corporate officer perked up at this, leaning forward. “Where?”

“She doesn’t know.” It was true, she didn’t have to set up a Screen for that. His location really had been held from her, in case of a moment just like this one. 

“So you do what they say, and they repay you by not murdering your little brother.” The officer tsk tsk’ed, “what a shame. Then we move to Plan B, much more crude, I’m afraid. Much more like FOTA.”

“You’re no better than them,” she spat.

The officer shrugged, looking bored. As he got up from the table he muttered, “to fight a wolf one must be a wolf themselves.”

Through her years of missions Minha had ascertained a key fact about global politics: it was no longer country against country, or even coalitions of countries against coalitions, but one global power group, FOTA, that controlled everything. Nevertheless the group had grown so large that it had splintered into various sub-groups that were always infighting with each other, sending out their assassins like her to take out some rival or another. True, occasionally she had to assassinate a politician that had discovered FOTA and was on the side of good, and about to blow the whistle. But in general her targets all branched from the same mother hydra and had the same desire: world domination and control of the masses, through occult means, remaining hidden from the public eye, and were obsessed with mind control, technology and harnessing psychic ability.

And now, because they couldn’t get her to willingly offer her psychic ability, they were going to harvest it from her organs, to be swapped into a loyal soldier, just like what happened to the dead children at the Institute. 

The doctor turned and her stomach fluttered, but in his hand was an alcohol wipe, the syringe peaking out from the counter behind him. 

She had a few more moments to breathe. He swabbed her arm, a brief splash of cold.

“Last chance to change your mind,” said the officer by the door.

“Go to hell.” 

Another tsk tsk. He said something in Russian and left the room, closing the door behind him.

Good, one less obstacle. 

She flexed her fingers, breathing oxygen into the very tips, gathering energy around her eyeballs, staring as far into space as she could, as though taking in the individual molecules in the white ceiling above her. She then played out in her mind exactly how the next few crucial seconds were going to go, and like a chess master, imagined as many different permutations and possible ways the situation might go.

She flexed her toes and the fluorescent lights buzzed and surged, unnoticed by the others. She was waking up. Fight or flight kicking in. The Followers Of The Apocalypse were going to be sorry they created such a monster. 

Now the doctor returned with the large steel syringe, shaped like a gun, big enough to kill a horse. Small beads of sweat formed on his forehead. The two guards on either side of her gripped her upper arms to keep her from squirming. The needle needed to enter in just the right way, otherwise her precious organs could be damaged. 

That was how they would see her: damaged goods.

Wait for it, you have one chance at this, when you strike, strike hard. She thanked god for the mobility in her fingers, another oversight. Binds at the wrist were enough to restrain a normal human perhaps, but a TK…

The doctor’s Adam’s apple bobbed up and down and he took that last step forward to be within range, lifted the injection gun –

She squeezed both hands into tight fists and the lights surged out in a puff of smoke and sparks, plunging the room into total darkness. 

Two fingers flicked up, curling around each other on her right hand. There was a blood curdling scream that must have been from the small doctor, and the sound of him collapsing to the ground. 

A heavy object flew off a counter and knocked into Volkov’s head with a sweep of three fingers on her left hand. He collapsed like a sack of Russian potatoes.

“You bastard,” Barkov growled, pulling a night stick from his back pocket. He brought it down on her gut, knocking the wind out of her, possibly cracking a rib. The pain was excruciating but now she could see the stick with her mind’s eye. He lifted it up to strike another blow but when he swung the stick stayed in the air, like a slippery bar of soap. The stick hovered there for a second and then came cracking down on the top of his head. Once, twice, three times, and he collapsed unconscious. 

Three for three. 

Her restraints were finicky and required light to see where the clasps and buckles were. She risked surging TK back into the overhead fluorescents. The room lit up revealing the violence to the wall cam. She flicked it with a finger and the cam rotated into the wall. 

The doctor was dead on the floor, the syringe embedded into his neck, the skin already turning blue. 

She went to work on her wrist binds, now a finicky matter of unclasping. TK is not great for fine motor movements, requiring subtle eye movements and immense concentration. When her arms were finally free, she sat up, wincing at the stabbing pain in her rib, and freed her ankles manually. She shivered, vision swimming from the taxing amount of energy released. No psychic soldier, no matter how advanced, has an unlimited supply. But she can’t rest yet.

As if to confirm this thought, the facility’s alarm system kicked in with its pulsed, earsplitting honks; no doubt someone was watching the camera. 

On her feet now, she slipped out the door into the hall, her bare feet quiet as a mouse. The alarm, though it will bring more guards, will further muffle her footfalls. She sprinted down the hall, hearing the shouts and clanging of guards rushing behind her. She was preternaturally fast —  being small and skinny has its advantages — and turned a corner just as the guards opened fire. Bullets cracked into the cement wall behind her. 

At the stairwell at the end of this hall, she headed down, taking the steps two or three at a time. She turned the corner at the middle landing and ran right into a guard heading up the stairs. They rebounded off each other, and the guard fired in surprise, machine gun bullets flying high above her head as he is knocked backward. He regained his footing but not as fast as she does. She leapt into the air like a flying squirrel and delivered a kick to the chest and another to the head. He tumbled backward down the stairs, and she heard his head crack along the way. He doesn’t move again. 

Rushing past him she bent down and pulled the machine gun from his hand. Just in time too: two more guards slammed open the double doors at the next landing, probably having heard the rifle fire seconds ago. She opened fire on them in a rapid burst before they can pull off a shot. Down they go.

Leaping over their bodies, she could see the exit at the end of the hall, a large set of double doors and metal detector. Beyond the exit was a big open dirt lot, leading to a final barbed wire gate that surrounded the perimeter. To get to the gate she would be a sitting duck for sniper fire. There might be a more stealthy side exit somewhere, but she didn’t have time to go exploring.

It was now or never.   

She disabled the cameras mounted above the metal detector with a palm thrust. The doors were miraculously unguarded; conceivably she just took out the two guards that had been posted there. More shouts and barks in Russian from the stairs above her, they were still hot on her trail. She grabbed one of the downed guard’s night sticks and jammed it through the handles of the double doors behind her, a crude barricade that wouldn’t hold forever, and headed down the final hall, hugging the wall, gun raised, listening to what she can above the din of the alarm.

By some miracle she made it to the main entrance without event. But now she could see what she is up against. The sun hadn’t come up but the yard was lit by floodlights. At each corner of the gated perimeter stood guard towers. No doubt snipers were posted and scanning for movement.  If she could just kill the lights she might make a run for it, but these lights were not like the ones in the doctor’s room, and required alot more TK horsepower to take out than she had at her disposal now.

Panic was threatening to invade her cool combat mode. She couldn’t see the chess moves ahead anymore, indecision clouding her adrenaline-fueled concentration.

Then like a guardian angel, came a female voice in her head that was not hers:

Minha, when you hear the explosions, run! Hug the wall to your right. 

And then there it was: the explosion rocked the tower to her left, lighting up the night in fiery red. Shouts from the tower guards, and the floodlights angled away from the entrance and towards the source of the explosion, searching for this new enemy. 

Blessed darkness fell over her path. 

She gingerly opened the double door a crack and slipped through, then sidestepped to the right as instructed. One hand running along the prison wall she moved in darkness as another explosion rocked the tower. Rifle fire rained down in the distance. 

Sounds of an engine roaring as a truck convoy left a garage and headed towards the explosions.

Shit! Came the voice. That truck is going to reach my barricade. I have to move! Hurry over that fence now, I can’t cover you anymore. 

Minha didn’t have to be told twice. Running as fast as she dared in the semi-darkness, she reached the chain link fence and started to climb. Nasty coils of barbed wire met her at the top. Letting go of the fence and holding her balance with just her feet, she threw off her shirt. Twisting the shirt into the shape of a rope and looping it around her palms as a buffer, she gingerly gripped the barbed wire. She could still feel the spikes digging into her palms as she attempted to hoist one leg over, loose cotton prison pants catching and ripping, and a sharp pain as the barbs sliced into her inner thigh. She pulled her leg back, it was no use. The coils were too tall to mount over, one leg at a time. Eyes watering, as blood ran down her leg she realized what she had to do, calculating that the chance of coming out without injury was very low. 

Holding tight on the barbs, ignoring the slices into her palm, she bent her knees slightly and then leapt with both legs rotating up and over her head, vaulting the coils like a gymnast over a bar. For a second she was upside down, hands gripping the top of the fence, then turning her body, she was now on the other side, and pushed off to avoid slicing into the barbs on her way down. It worked, but now she was free falling to the ground on other side. If she landed on her back it would be all over.. She whipped her left arm and leg, attempting to rotate in the air, and came crashing down on her side, the blow fracturing her right wrist, and dislocating her arm. 

She groaned into the dirt. Thankfully the dry grass had partially cushioned her fall, or it might have been worse, maybe fatal.

A desire came over her to just lie here and give up, give in to the pain.

No. Move it Minha, you didn’t come this far to die in the grass in some strange land.

 She clamored up using her left arm, the right dangling and throbbing uselessly at her side.

The floodlights were moving now, in search mode around the perimeter. She took off running through the field. 

She ran and ran, not daring to stop until she felt she would faint from exhaustion. Dawn was approaching, the first hints of sun peeking up over the mountains to the east. The terrain was mostly flat shrublands, occasional willow trees grew in dry creek beds that must fill up in the rainy season. 

She followed a dry creek until she found that it met up with a larger tributary that had a little trickle of water. She stopped to drink, cupping the precious liquid in her sweaty palms, dried over with blood. She then washed off the blood from her sliced open palms, but these weren’t as bad as her thigh, which was still bleeding; her running was not allowing the area to clot. Her rib also continued to throb and ache from the blow from Barkov’s night stick.

But her shoulder and wrist would need attention now.  Biting into her shirt, she gripped at the elbow and shoved up hard, screaming into the sky as her shoulder popped back into place. She gingerly rotated it, the pain throbbing but at least she could move it normally. Her wrist would need to be splinted, she had been holding it with her other hand as she ran. 

She rinsed the blood off her shirt and made a makeshift wrap for her wrist, tying it tightly with her teeth.

Then she allowed herself to collapse on her back in the dirt, ever alert for the sounds or vibrations of trucks or ATV’s. 

All was quiet save for the buzz of insects, the rustle of grass and trickle of the creek.

Was she really free? Part of her couldn’t believe it. She’d had some narrow escapes in the past, but this had been the worst.

And what of that woman’s voice in her head?

As though responding to her thoughts the voice came again, continue North West until you come to the river. Hide under the willows and wait for me. 

Minha found the river about an hour later by following the tributary as it grew from a trickle to a running creek that she could wade in, and finally meeting a larger body of water that snaked through the shrublands. The ground became more stony, she was running over pebbles shot through with foxtails and reeds. At the river she jumped in, the blessed coolness reviving her, bringing her back to her senses, back to life. Floating on her back and staring up at the cloudless morning sky, she felt a brief spasm of wild euphoria.

Just hours ago she had been on death row! And now, this oasis.

 She swam to other side, gulping large mouthfuls of water like a fish, and found a dense crop of willow trees that threw the river bank and pebbly beach beyond it in cool shade.

Here she would wait. 

She was busy synching her thigh wound closed with a bundle of dried reeds, tying it around her leg like a bandage, when the hair on the back of her neck stood up. 

She turned around and a woman stepped out from behind a willow.

Minha jumped up, reflexively throwing her good palm out.

“It’s OK, it’s me,” the woman placated, holding up her hands, apparently unarmed. Perhaps in her fifties, face lined and weather-beaten but still full of vitality.

“You…you’re the voice in my head.”

“Yes.”

“Who are you?”

“My name is Sarah. Sarah Middleton.”

“Middleton…where have I heard — ”

“I’m Rodger and Dodger’s mom.”

***

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The Downfall of Modern Astronomy

The Downfall of Modern Astronomy From an old flat earth booklet. Click Here

The Downfall of Modern Astronomy
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The Lilith Code, Pt.3: Divine Amnesia

A Truthscrambler Video Production

Topics covered: Human Evolution, Atlantis and Lemuria, Ancient Clairvoyance, Arrival of Christ and the Mystery of Golgotha, Fairy Tales Encode This Human History, Modern Day Fairytales: Hollyweird and Netflix, Sophia and Christ – A Love Story, Lilith as Materialistic Impulse, Her Vampiric Attempt to Hold onto Old Clairvoyance, Black Cube and Saturn Symbolism, A Run-Through of Various Recent Netflix Shows

Part 1 Here:    • The Lilith Code   Part 2 Here:    • Lilith Code 2  

Please watch the whole series for full understanding. My work on Lilith is some of the most important work I have done in recent years.

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Steiner: “Vivisection – in ancient times any doctor would have looked on this as the height of madness.”

Kamaloka is the spiritual state we enter shortly after death. It lasts about 30 years and is a state of purging the attachments to the material world, so that we can enter cleanly the Heavens proper (Devachan). It is also a place where we experience the effects of our actions that affected others, both good and bad. Including how we treated animals. Steiner says,

A vivisectionist has a particularly terrible life in Kamaloka. It is not for an anthroposophist to criticize what goes on in the world around him, …

Vivisection: in ancient times any doctor would have looked on this as the height of madness.
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Releasing Ahriman

Psychedelics, when used with respect and moderation can help one to see the spiritual underpinnings of your life, even on the day-to-day mundane level. ‘Chance’ meetings with other people, synchronicities and the like, are messages from the divine. The fallen god Ahriman seeks to blind people to this. And he is generally doing a very good job of it, at this time.

Below are some guidelines for releasing the god of the materialistic impulse of our age. Ahriman and Lucifer are within all of us and wreak havoc unless released and redeemed.

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The History of the Actor Based Reality

From Youtuber “Sparkie Lee,” who I recommend checking out:

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