Descent into the old chambers that hooked me — ritual control, time manipulation, fallen gods
PART TWO – The Time Element
2.2 In this section, we will look at how the time element became a central focus in my work because it knotted together almost every Truthscrambler obsession at the time. The idea began to emerge that if the elite are trying to escape the planet, and can’t, perhaps they can avoid judgement day by resetting time, by looping back to an earlier time again and again, a kind of real life Groundhog’s Day.
Keep in mind that I do not present this now as fact, but as a glimpse into the rabbit warren I was inhabiting back then. Just like in the last section, at the end I will offer a psycho-spiritual explanation for what I was experiencing, grounded in Anthroposophic worldview, and not making any assumptions about evil world controllers.
Let's go down into the dank and dark,
the cubbyhole runs
at the liminal space of time
The Precogs
There was a Netflix show that was influential to me back in those days called Dark in which the evil villain has a time machine, which loops back 33 years prior. It was implied that his aim was to keep looping back to stay hidden in this self-created time pocket. That number 33 is steeped in symbolism and so was already on my radar from other lines of research. Now, the time machine was powered on a human organism, a teenage child which he had kidnapped, and would have to kidnap anew each cycle. I remember multiple folks on YouTube self proclaiming to be MK ultra survivor/whistle blowers talking about how children are used in this way — strapped to machines in order to harness their potent energy. The Maze Runner series, the show Ascension, echo along similar lines. In Ascension the gifted psychic child becomes what in Harry Potter would be called a “portkey,” a way to portal to another location (or planet/dimension) instantly. In The OA series, a group of five kidnapped adults learn a set of movements which allow them to portal to another dimension.
Bob from the Open Scroll blog talked about this but had a unique spin that had to do with time. In 2019 he was claiming that any minute now there was going to be a seven year reset back to 2012 which would be a restoration of the true timeline and he had all this biblical and TV show evidence to support it. Of course it never happened, (at least not that I was aware of), and you will recall that around 2012 James Holmes the Aurora shooter was studying time anomalies in his research at the Salk Institute. And so it kept coming back to this, this idea of time being manipulated or distorted, and could it be that we were living in some kind of false timeline that the Illuminati had managed to suck all our souls into and then by looping back again and again they were forcing us into a real life Groundhogs Day? Had we lived all this before? Was that what déjà vu was all about?
This theory seemed to explain all of the horrors. Then these repeating themes in film were serving as cryptic warnings and glimpses behind the curtain. I was seeing that this reality itself was powered by a kind of technological-biological merging, some construct powered through ancient and hidden technology, that gifted psychic children were being harnessed to project whole realities. It was like we were living inside a shared dream from the Inception film, only instead of a little piece of tech as the source of it, the source was a child or group of children lying in some lab in the Real World, strapped to machinery. The image that kept coming to mind was the Precogs in Minority Report, lying in the pool with electrode helmets reading their brainwaves. They too, by the way, were catching glimpses of the future before they happened.
Cosmic Pizzagate
And then the Pizzagate thing came out and more discussion about child abuse surfaced, and to the conspiracy circles I was in, this Pizzagate phenomenon became much bigger than just about a pizza parlor in Washington DC. It was about something cosmic, another glimpse behind the Matrix Projection screen. After all, whatever was happening to the Precog children in RL would be manifested in myriad fractalized ways in the Matrix. It was their plea for help. It was the same idea as someone sleeping who has to pee, and so in their dream it starts raining. Our matrix world was symbolically manifesting whatever was happening to the Precogs in RL. They were the Source Code, we were experiencing their Dreaming.
And was that not what William Burroughs was cryptically writing about – sodomy as a kind of magical operation, where they stealing life force from children through rape, and innocence defiled, and using this potent energy to conduct their mega rituals, to write their evil-genius codes that I was seeing in all the number synchronicities, in the predictive programming, the cross-referencing symbolic motifs across multiple lines of media? It seemed to answer that question: how are they so smart? How are they so connected and knowledgeable about arcane symbology and so prevalent and saturating? Because they were stealing it secondhand, as it were, from children who are naturally plugged into the astral world, the collective unconscious, where a kind of language genius lives, or what later I would see as the goddess Sophia herself, trapped in matter and channeling messages to humanity (see part 3, The Goddess Element).
Mandela Mandalas
CERN supercollider
12 Monkeys Time Machine
Note the mandala pattern on her pillow.
Eventually I dismissed the idea that we were in a looping timeline, especially after Bob’s predictions kept failing, but I did continue to see the time motif everywhere, and I thought, well, maybe they aren’t successful yet, but they are clearly obsessed with trying to control time in this way, and that’s what CERN was all about with its Mandela effects. Maybe the past is subtly being re-written. And I was seeing a connection between the CERN super collider shape with the mandala (mandela) shape, and the Mandala shape with the shape of both the raying sun (or occult black sun), and the anus, because the anus was signaling cosmic pizza gate pedophile rapist codes that were projecting this overlay across our culture; this MK ultra child abuse culture. Through powerful tech, the collective souls were being sucked into the Black Sun Portal, and out of the anus of the Demiurge into this false construct reality. I connected this portal image to the Kabbalistic hidden 11th black sephira called Daath, (sounds like “death”) which fascinated occultists like Crowley and Kenneth Grant for its source of knowledge and as a gateway to the lower astral world. Were we stuck in Daath? Stuck in the Daath Ship, the Death Ship. The creators of Dark made another show called 1899, which seems to be about a death ship/false matrix system.
Prefall State
So what was behind all this really? Now with time and distance and clarity what is the Truthscrambler 2.0 explanation? If we again consider that the Astral world is alive and communicative to those of us who are receptive, intuitive, that it’s not a mistake or a coincidence that there is a real symbol cluster here between children, time distortion, sense of unreality, abuse and sexual exploitation. Humanity is grieving the loss of innocence. The child represents innocence and freedom and yes, a certain clairvoyance to the higher worlds. There exists in man the desire for a shortcut to higher knowledge and awakening without doing the work, it wants to go back in time to the paradisic childhood of humanity, the Garden of Eden state.
But we can’t, we have to gain spirit connection in a new way, through I presence, through individualized cultivation along moral lines.
Sexual gratification, drugs, even Crowlean-type rituals that produce intense peak states seem to unlock it briefly, but then takes it away and becomes a curse if not engaged with restraint and prudence. This is what the symbols are saying, stripped away of all the sci-fi horror clothing.
In His Dark Materials book and tv series the Magisterium, a very powerful religious political force is trying to kill Lyra the main character because they see her as the second Eve, and if they kill her before she has a chance to fall again, then they believe that they will go back to this original Garden of Eden pre-fall state. In the Egyptian legend this pre-fall state is shown by Osiris the father god, who then gets killed and dismembered into many pieces by Set (the fall). I was seeing a connection back then to Jeff Bezos with his Day One motif (pre-fall) and I noticed how the Day One building looks very phallic in appearance, as well as the Amazon logo, and penis of Osiris, the fourteenth piece, was never found by Isis. It was eaten by a fish, and in Hebrew gematria the fourteenth letter Nun, means fish. It also means no-thing, none, the absence, which I connected to Daath/Black Sun/Death/Anus.
As I write this, I feel the old TS 1.0 charge. But now I keep the symbolic resonance as evidence of living astral substance moving through culture, not belonging to Bezos or any human elite group consciously encoding these things, that’s the move to TS 2.0.
But back then, even though a part of me always felt like the idea of time being reset was a bit far-fetched, there was a part of me that couldn’t shake this idea of time manipulation/dark dank portal abuse, because there was a part of me that was deeply mistrustful of the universe that I was in, where everywhere I looked in media, I would see an overlay of suffering-and-abuser, and so the universe matrix was constantly projecting the symbolic mind of abuser-merging-with-the-abused, and that said abuser would seek to reset the system indefinitely like a junkie returning again and again to the needle, and that my deep rejection and disgust of this was a sign of my own innocence, morality, life-force, child essence, whatever you want to call it, that was still fighting for some kind of foothold, and this part of me was identified with the child super-soldier strapped to a machine projecting reality, powering the Daath Time Machine.
These ideas would later crystallize into my novel Aeon of the Twins, where the twins are forced by their handlers to write all the hit songs that would be performed and essentially plagiarized by the pop singers and pop bands ( see the conspiracy claims of Donald Marshall for more on that). And so as a plea for help they infuse all the songs with hints and codes for the Awakened.
The astral world speaks:
Innocence eroded.
Childhood sucked dry.
Time is not as linear as you may think.
The effect may precede the cause.
I felt amoral genius behind pop media that exceeded the capacity of the writers themselves. And this genius could sometimes even “predict” or prefigure future events. My past self would have thought that maybe it was because the Illuminati had lived it all before, in a prior loop or iteration. And were gloating about that by putting those markers in our faces, hidden as Easter eggs in plain sight.
In the next section 2.3 The Goddess Element, we will see how these ideas evolved from technological horror to spiritual horror, where humanity was stuck inside a fallen God drama, how Sophia, fallen into matter and then driven insane, became Lilith, and only through the help of a small Remnant of humanity, could be redeemed via help from Christic intercession (the Spiritual Hostage Myth).
