Section 1: The Shift from TS 1.0 to 2.0
Part ONE
The seeds for Truthscrambler 1.0 were sown in summer of 2012 with the mass shootings in Aurora Colorado, and then Sandy Hook, Connecticut.
I remember being in the kitchen of my ex-girlfriend’s house, she was out, at work, and my mother told me on the phone that the shooter in the Aurora movie theater had dressed up like the Joker, died his hair orange, and that he was my age at the time, early 20’s.
I googled something about that wanting to find out more, which was unusual for me. I normally had no interest in news and politics and things like that, but somehow I stumbled onto a conspiracy blog. The author was writing about the occult symbolism behind the shooting, and that was a pivotal life moment, after reading that blog the whole trajectory of my life changed.
According to the blogger, the shooter James Holmes was under a kind of hypnotic spell which made him carry out this horrendous act without conscious awareness, another in a line of programmed alters, sleeper assassins, or CIA MK-Ultra mind controlled black assassins, as he called it. He had been tracking this since the 60’s with Sirhan Sirhan. The programmed alter takes over the conscious personality, carries out its mission like a perfect soldier and then at the behest of the handler goes back underground and the front personality surfaces again totally bewildered as to their missing time.
This blogger did his research. He goes back to the MK Ultra project of the 60’s, which was real and documented, however as we shall see that doesn’t necessarily prove that James Holmes was a CIA black assassin victim, or that they achieved anything like that kind of super soldier. I also was never able to prove that this program wasn’t shut down in the 70’s other than from anecdotal accounts of people making claims on youtube which then get fed into the echo chamber of the alternative media subculture.
But he showed how Holmes was a promising, budding neuroscientist at the prestigious Salk Institute working on the sensation felt behind time distortions, time anomalies. Getting the subject to experience event B before event A. Then the connection was made between the Joker character archetype and the tarot cards Fool and Hanged Man. In that film, A Dark Knight, the Joker hangs upside down from a building at one point. In the 9/11 footage, there was viral footage released of a man falling from the tower, (Tower card) and one knee was bent at the same angle as the Hanged Man. The Hanged Man is card 12. Twelve people died in the theater. The actor of the Joker in that film, Heath Ledger played a man who is found hung in his last film before his death The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus.
At the time this all totally grabbed me and pulled me in. It was very coherent. It was a totalizing theory that explained pretty much everything. Headlines and news events could be decoded under the same umbrella, this black project dark occult archetypal mytho-poetic explanation. It led to other conspiracy researchers like Jordan Maxwell, David Icke, Santos Bonacci, Eric Dubay, Donald Marshall, Aug Tellez, and the list goes on as I obsessively researched this stuff and that work became Truthscrambler 1.0
Life became a crypto-puzzle to solve. It was very stimulating. It was like psychedelics; it was like a real life Da Vinci Code; news headlines could be decoded via symbol resonance, numerology, gematria, anagrams….these were puzzle keys that unlocked messages that the elites were putting in our faces to laugh at us and to see who was paying attention. These elites were somehow incredibly brilliant at putting these Easter eggs everywhere, which then led to the theory that they had access to advanced technology, whether that was A.I., a break-away civilization hiding underground, or possibly contact with extraterrestrial advanced species. In the last analysis it was concluded they were working for the devil himself, that they had sold their soul to the devil in exchange for evil genius, and of course, the resultant power, fame, money that could come with that. And that the devil had figured out how to quickly make clone bodies, inhabit them with demonic intelligence, that these clones walking around were essentially the make-up of all the celebrities, pop singers and rappers, presidents, prime ministers, sports superstars, etc.
And I was doing something very important. I was warning people. I was lifting the veil. I was spreading truth in the world of falsity and lies. I was a portal, a channel. Part of a cosmic mission. Perhaps I had been chosen. Perhaps I was part of a secret brotherhood, an oath that I made before even coming into this incarnation.
I needed that at the time. I needed that validation, because I was lonely and depressed and smoking weed every day, and not connected to my girlfriend, and then eventually single, no love life, no friends, and all this was symptomatic of what I later discovered through therapy to be a wounded inner child. For over a decade or so the Truthscrambler work and psycho-spiritual orientation that came with it was mostly a projection of that inner child outward, and so it was not grounded. Even though I was getting dopamine hits and excitation from decoding the elites and their evil machinations, it was at the price of fear and paranoia, because the insane ones at the helm could sink this Earth ship at any time, or send us into the biblical apocalyptic times. Meanwhile it also isolated me from most of the world who didn’t share this view, didn’t see what I saw (they were the “sheeple.”) This included family and friends. Rifts were formed. Cognitive dissonance abounded.
Of course, it wasn’t all just about looking at the evil acts, the mass shootings and the “ritual elements” behind that. My research also entered more lifted realms when I discovered that astrology works and is real; or that sacred scripture contained esoteric parables that could add value to my life. I found tarot symbolism to be nourishing for me and for my subconscious and for my relationship with higher meaning.
The connecting link between the conspiracy research and occult spirituality is not immediately obvious so I should make the following point. Part of the view I was holding when I was down that conspiracy rabbit hole was that when the elites pull off their “false flag events” like a shooting, a war, a celebrity death, if you look at the dates and the times in numerology and gematria etc., you find repeating patterns in number you find connections to cosmological events, to eclipses and other planetary phenomena, in other words, whatever was going on, had a spiritual element to it. It wasn’t just about power grabs, or fearing the populous, although that was there too. It was also about fulfilling some kind of cosmic calendar of ceremonial magic. Deep knowledge of the cosmic rhythms and earth fluctuations of energy were taken very seriously and used to amplify the course of magical events that they were pulling off.
So, in moments of inspiration, I might write something in Truthscrambler 1.0 along the lines of: “nothing is outside of God’s timeline. all events whether of the light or of the dark are orchestrated. Nothing is outside of this one unified code, not even the black brotherhoods. We are really talking about the deep structure or metaphysics of reality itself, and so even though the elites sold their soul to the devil for power and fame and money and control they still have to follow these cosmic laws which seem to have archetypal numbers and dates and symbol motifs and rhythmic cycles attached to them that can be mapped by the astute occult observer.”
Which is the bridge to TS 2.0 in that it finds a loftier rhythm and wholeness but back then it still clung to a totalizing narrative that relies on sharp destabilizing polarity (good vs evil) to give it charge, as well as the psychological inability to tolerate chaos, randomness, irreducible complexity, because that meant my ego, my center loses stability and starts to fragment. My I (in Steiner language) did not yet have the strength to stand on its own. So it needed certainty elsewhere and built up a total self closed loop of metaphysical explanation of everything. It was elegant. It was creative. It was down right beautiful. But it wasn’t grounded. It made several big assumptions about the world which I no longer hold today. It was symptomatic of anxiety and the Wounded Inner Child that projected alienation and fear from within, out onto the entire cosmos. Likes and encouraging comments from my blog readers further justified it and fueled it. I was building my community of like-minded thinkers, even though none of it was in-person, and I was still sitting behind the computer screen alone.
