Raoul Pop made a solid video on his journey through depression a while back that had me ruminating on how I’ve handled my own bouts with this condition. He pointed out that in these post-COVID times it is an issue that many more are facing. Watch his video for some basic insight, but there are more subtle occult tricks that you won’t find in the western medical literature.

These are expanded journal entries, some odds and ends that may be of practical use. Still inspired lately by Rudolf Steiner. This is is somethin’ for Capricorn, who rules the COLD and the BONES.

Avoid Creating Additional Karma

There are no secrets. Jesus says in the Gospel of Thomas, “Don’t lie, and don’t do what you hate, because all things are disclosed before heaven. After all, there is nothing hidden that will not be revealed, and there is nothing covered up that will remain undisclosed.”

Morality is thus leaving behind the impressions, psychic and physical, that you wouldn’t be ashamed of interested parties witnessing during their time in Devachan, a state that exists between death and a new birth. If you die with holdings, attachments, shame or something unresolved with someone, both parties experience what the other felt, during this time of purgatory. If the feelings are too strong to be resolved in Spiritland, the parties will contract with each other to meet in the next life to work it out. This is karma.

Knowing this, it is not so difficult to look back on one’s life and infer which relationships were karmic, the ones that seemed destined or have a certain “fated” quality.

Things started to shift for me quite a bit when I learned from Steiner that after death the soul experiences how their actions during life affected those around them, as though they were that person. Think about the hell this would be to the sadist – this is why they fear death so much and seek to extend life through transhumanism.

Listen to the BONES

You make the drum your instrument but did you ever consider it was also making you it’s instrument?

It’s teaching me how hold to my body. Limb-to-limb.

Sex, artistic expression (music, writing, visual, etc.), and the psychedelic experience, are perhaps the three biggest mysteries in the life of man. Unexplainable with rational thought. They appeal to his body, to a wisdom there, that is older than his budding ego “I” consciousness, which is comparatively still young.

The soul is old, in a sense timeless.

The body is also old. A product of ages of evolutionary wisdom by Higher Beings.

But the experience of the soul in the body as an “I” consciousness is still quite young. We are newborns, in this sense, on the Tree of Life.

Sex, psychedelics, music, and occult science are guides up the Tree. To self-love, first, which can then radiate out to the rest of the cosmos. (Please note that sex and certain drugs are of course, double edged swords that can also lead down the Tree into the infernal Hellish regions.)

Steiner says when you put your work out there for humanity, it should be out of love (the Christ impulse) and not mixed with any kind of desire for personal development.

Artists leave behind love. Romantic love is a two-way circuit. But the artist goes out on a limb to love all of humanity.

Gender or the two sexes is the last and most stubborn illusion of Maya to fall, when the “I” regards its own soul nature. The true self has reincarnated in both male and female bodies. I didn’t want to accept this at first. But there is something liberating to the notion, I must say. Look at your partner and see someone who on the soul level transcends whatever gender form they currently inhabit. Thus in White Tantra the idea is not lusting over either the male or female form but finding in their union something higher, the ecstatic union with God. A clear circuit must be built up, with no damming (damning?) up of energies on either the male or female side.

Walk Barefoot

This was recommended to me by Santos Bonacci. At first I was skeptical but finally I tried it and got almost immediate results. The soles (souls) of the feet contain a large percentage of the body’s acupuncture points. They are our constant point of contact to the earth, and to the electric (sun) and magnetic (moon) currents that seethe in and out of the ground constantly. But if you wear shoes, the rubber insoles dampen and block this energy. If you struggle with depression you must walk barefoot as often as you can, rain or shine. Nature walking is better, but even cement sidewalk works, because cement is made of minerals, sand and rock which is still just pulverised earth. On a hot day, the hot concrete pushes, electrically, positive energy into your body. On a cold day, the cold concrete pulls, magnetically, negative energy out of the body. So either way you win. It takes some getting used to and your feet will complain at first, but in my case my feet quickly learned that this was beneficial and started to crave it.

Let in the COLD

My recent experiment with LSD taught me to cultivate joy by focusing on the warmth currents in the body. Thoughts in the “I” are the primary cause of this noticing, which becomes a regulation, which flows into the astral body (emotions) and finally get hardwired into the etheric body and physical body. All disease, as Steiner says, has a primary cause in a thought or idea that cannot be reconciled in the astral body (such as a memory of a traumatic event); it becomes an emotional blockage that over time, if ignored, will manifest as a malfunctioning of one organ or another. And since all the organs are in communication, disease results.

It’s one thing to know this, it’s another thing to live this way in thought and manner…

Mantra: “my thoughts cause my joy or suffering, health or illness.” Ahriman wants to hide this fact, and make you think that health or illness is caused by the physical world alone.

The various methods I’ve noted above all work to clear out these blockages in the astral body. Acupuncture works to this effect as well. What do you think is being punctured?

Self-love radiates out warmth. Noticing and acknowledging the warmth you already do have is practicing being grateful to God, grateful for your life, a chance at life.

But there are times to be cold – when cold is necessary. As a Saturnian Capricorn it’s my job to communicate this to you.

The desire for junk in all its forms is a desire for warmth, warmth, warmth at the sake of cold.

Cold makes room for warmth. It is a vacuum (vac, the vacuous Fool, the vulturous vulva, etc.)

Behold Mut, the cold, dark Vulture Goddess (Saturn-Moon); her vessel fills with the Sun God’s electric heat and light. All phenomena are poetic fractalizations of our Divine Parents, both within and without.

Cold makes room – otherwise you overheat. I’m a Capricorn, one who glorifies winter, because I have a sensitive temperament that tends to overheat if not checked. Some people are just the opposite and need more heat, more stimulation. Know your temperament.

Note the guy from that documentary My Octopus Teacher, who got used to diving into the frigid ocean without a wetsuit. Not just got used to it, his body started to crave the cold.

My blue fluorite is cooling and allows for clear thought and speech (air). You must find what element you lack in your astrological chart and supplement accordingly with the right crystals and minerals.

My Saturnian ring protects me from superfluous thought/action/negativity. Fixed on the goal, the Capricorn goat can, at first glance, appear cold to the rest of the world, as it climbs the mountain.

Saturn who rules Capricorn associates with the black cube of restriction (cold): notice the letter L (EL means God) in words limit, lack, less, little. December is month number 12 [tw(EL)ve]. EL is in “wall;” a barrier, a wall of EL. Wall backwards is “law.” Saturn upholds the law. The law of weight. The law of body and bone. The law of karma. The letter ‘L’ in Hebrew and English is found right in the mid-EL of the alphabet, because it is the god entombed in the lowest density of matter, in the human flesh-suit, right at the pendulum swing, the return journey:

The LMN sequence are the liquids. Remember, Jack in Black Butterfly gets up early every morning to swim in the freezing Colorado lake. He is the Christ character teaching you to crave the cold. It will make your soul tougher, just as barefoot walking will make your soles tougher.

Know what temperament you have towards hot/cold and choose foods/herbs accordingly. Mint is cooling. Green tea, even as a hot drink with caffeine, is nevertheless cooling energetically. Traditional Chinese medicine mastered this science long ago, as well as other old cultures. Coffee is warming, along with black tea. Cooling is good for those prone to inflammation. Those prone to boredom, to lack-of-meaning or drive may need more heat.

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For those readers who have stuck with me this far, I am deeply grateful. Reading, liking or commenting on my work means more to me than you know. Much love all.