Arizona speaking before a conference, discussing pictures she drew about her experiences:
There’s a lot of complexities regarding my feelings right now that I still am trying to deal with and I’m speaking out because of my children being taken away from me. And I’m not the only one. I feel that other survivors have lost their children in the same way because that is one of the first things that they do. I’m not doing this for the money this is not something I want to be known for, this is not a game for me. I’ve had some reactions to these pictures but I’ve picked out the tame ones. Ok this first one is an example, this is how I felt as a child and most of my life. This is a picture to express how my mundane life felt. I had no life to speak of, a lot of missing time, I couldn’t figure out my feelings I couldn’t figure out anything. This is about the first picture I ever did dealing with what was coming up. I had a part called Alice, and it turns out it is Alice in the gray place. It mystified me, because I knew about Alice in Wonderland programing, but I didn’t know what Alice in the gray place meant and I had a of journaling to figure this one out. And drawing. It took a few years to figure this one out. This next one were dolphins. Many survivors talk about dolphins in their experience and being taught to communicate with dolphins and this happened on military bases. I knew that there were dolphins and knew that they were gray. So there was a connection to Alice.
When I was five some of the training took part in Russia. We have a partnership with the Soviet Union that has been around a long time. The whole time we had the supposed cold war with Russia, we were learning from them or partners with them. They were very advanced in their psychic training experimentation, there were some places here associated with that. One of the places was UCLA, a parapsychology program. The mk ultra labs are still over at UCLA , the parapsychology programs shut down, this particular picture deals with what I saw there. This is a uniformed KBG officer that was taking something or was standing here while one scientist was talking to another, and from my memories this was taking place in Leningrad. This is a picture I did, I had a really violent terrible memory of being drowned in ice water, purposely, there. What was happening was they were using ice water and the water was very important in this, to cause near-death experiences. And that I know of, this happened to me three times before I could complete the experiment or assignment that was given to me. I was to go out of my body and in my astral body go into another room, a specified room, and go in there a pick up a pencil sitting on a table and make a mark on the of piece paper. There was a KGB officer sitting there at the table, it was being recorded on camera and it took me three tries to get this right. And at one point I was in therapy with a therapist who was internationally known for working with people in this area, with people that have been ritually abused and mind controlled. And he told me that he’d had three other clients that reported this same kind of experimentation. And I hadn’t told anyone about my memories so I find this very interesting. This is another example of the kind of thing that happen on bases that I went through and many others have gone through. I had nothing in my life to compare this with. I didn’t pull this up from anywhere. There were no books dealing with this. Maybe now people are writing some. There were no TV shows dealing with this, these were very hard pictures to draw because I had to deal with everything while I was drawing them. This is a picture I did for the therapist it was dealing with my feelings about all this. There was a lot of programming being done with strobe lighting, with being hooked up to EEG machinery, EEG biofeedback, there was lot of electrodes places on other parts on the body recording neuro-impulses. There were drugs being given, earphones so that you were hearing different tones, sounds and a device placed on the head so that you heard it through the mastoid bones in your head.